my life is in shambles
why the fuck am i sitting here waiting for my boyfriend of half a decade to call me when i could very well pick up the phone and call him???
why the fuck am i sitting here six months after my engagement wondering what the future of my relationship with him will be???
why the fuck does every single little thing i own remind me of him? perhaps because it all came directly from him???
how come when i see him everything seems normal and happy and we are together again but he still says he "doesn't know what he wants"?
i am dying ... i hate my life right now ... it is the saddest thing i have ever had to go through
i just keep hoping and praying that david will get over this bullshit and come to his senses
after five years, you'd think the asshole would know what he wants out his own life and his relationship with me ...
i don't know what to say ... except that i am tired of crying ... when is it my turn to be ANGRY???
why the fuck am i sitting here six months after my engagement wondering what the future of my relationship with him will be???
why the fuck does every single little thing i own remind me of him? perhaps because it all came directly from him???
how come when i see him everything seems normal and happy and we are together again but he still says he "doesn't know what he wants"?
i am dying ... i hate my life right now ... it is the saddest thing i have ever had to go through
i just keep hoping and praying that david will get over this bullshit and come to his senses
after five years, you'd think the asshole would know what he wants out his own life and his relationship with me ...
i don't know what to say ... except that i am tired of crying ... when is it my turn to be ANGRY???