The circle of life...its amazing!
As most of you know my grandma died almost two weeks ago and Im having a tough time with it, however the circle of life is now complete because my sister just had her baby. His name is Beckett Edwin Adler and he is the most amazing thing I have ever seen! These last 3 weeks have been an emotional roller coaster that I would never wish upon anyone but they have made a huge impact on me, they have made me realize that I need to kick some ass and get out of here so I can be with my family more. Ive always kinda hated going home but being with my family while we watched my grandma fade away to nothing brought my family to a new closeness, we shared stories and laughs it was a really hard battle but we fought it together, and then seeing Beckett for the first time upped that level of closeness even more. I finally feel like my mom and I are friends and shes just not my mom. I dont feel the need to rebel against her like I have in the past. Seeing her in her lowest and highest moments made me realize that shes a real person and not this dominant figure that is out to try and change me. She and I rode the roller coaster together and I feel like we bonded. Ive always had a great relationship with my dad but after these last few weeks its stronger than it has ever been. My sister and I didnt get along much when we were younger but again she and I sat side by side through this and now I feel like I gained not only a sister but another best friend. Im really at an amazing place right now...its like a total euphoria or something, I really dig it! I know this feeling will last too because for the rest of my life I get to watch Beckett grow up and each time I see him or think about him will bring me right back to this place. I am truly happy!