Re: From your aquaintance at GCC Nlittle_nemoDecember 5 2004, 17:33:46 UTC
I'm very very sorry that your friend was murdered. that is such a horrible thing to happen to anyone. now, my dear clint, I'm sorry you feel the way you do about the way I feel about things. but I'm not sorry that I voted the way I did. I know that it was an important election for a lot of people, but really the results and constant quarls just show it to be an important one to a lot of people. When we vote, we're voting for not just one issue, we're voting for several. we are picking the candidate that we feel will best carry us through the future four years. yes, I voted for Bush, and I did so because I felt between the two, he was better. there are several reasons why I voted for him and there are several reasons why I didn't vote for kerry. and yes there are still several things I don't like about Bush, but I felt it right to make a choice, and so I chose. A whole lot has change in the short period of us not seeing each other, and this is not because of any influence of any other person, but through reflection, internal struggles, survival, realization, truth, and time. This is not to say that I'm a different person. not at all. I'm still Kelly, but I'm a stronger Kelly. And I do believe in Jesus and God, and I'm sorry if you don't like that. It was a long road I had to take to meet up with things. Nothing changes the way I see you as my friend. I know you are still Clint. But even if it sounds entirely ridiculous or corny, I'm not going to shove Jesus in the Closet. I have a feeling you wouldn't want me to do something like that either, because I think you can relate, only in a different way. Anyway, I understand what you're going through, even if it isn't happening to me. I want it to stop, I want it all to stop. That's what I was saying in my post. All of the violence needs to end. but I don't see that happening. as you can see, I'm still a hippie, but you know what, I know this world isn't ideal, and I hate that I have to come out of my bubble of what I want to be and see what is. I hate that your friend had to die, I hate that there's a war going on at home and in iraq, I hate that there are babies killed and thrown aside... I don't know what should be done, and I don't know what I can do, but help what little I can till I am able to do even more. I'm not going to call America a lost cause, but it's just something that I don't know how to deal with. you know me, I want to live in the woods, alone... This will happen, and I know that the killing will continue, the fighting will continue, the hatred will persist until there is too much, and it drowns out anything good. things aren't getting better. just hang on though. I know I can't ask it of you, and I'm not sure if you'll really listen. I don't want to sound like some broken record or give you the image of a brainwashed bible banshee, I think you might know what I'll say... Look. I do believe in Jesus and God, I know you don't. I know that you are very intelligent. But so am I. I know what you are missing. I don't even think I need to say more. I don't want you to get this idea I've changed. I'm still me, and I still care, but I know what God has done for me. I know He's out there, and what He's even doing for you. Look, I'm not going to turn this into a sermon or political rant. I know I've been absent from you for a long time, and I'm sorry. I care about you tons clint. and I'm so so sorry that you are hurting over all these things that plague you and this country, and I'm sorry that you have lost your friend because of this. really, honestly, I am. I don't know what else I want to say... look, I don't know how you feel about me. but if you want to say hello, or want to know what i'm up to, my new lj is: wine_red I'll see you around or hear from you then... Love you, Kelly.
now, my dear clint, I'm sorry you feel the way you do about the way I feel about things. but I'm not sorry that I voted the way I did. I know that it was an important election for a lot of people, but really the results and constant quarls just show it to be an important one to a lot of people. When we vote, we're voting for not just one issue, we're voting for several. we are picking the candidate that we feel will best carry us through the future four years. yes, I voted for Bush, and I did so because I felt between the two, he was better. there are several reasons why I voted for him and there are several reasons why I didn't vote for kerry. and yes there are still several things I don't like about Bush, but I felt it right to make a choice, and so I chose. A whole lot has change in the short period of us not seeing each other, and this is not because of any influence of any other person, but through reflection, internal struggles, survival, realization, truth, and time. This is not to say that I'm a different person. not at all. I'm still Kelly, but I'm a stronger Kelly. And I do believe in Jesus and God, and I'm sorry if you don't like that. It was a long road I had to take to meet up with things. Nothing changes the way I see you as my friend. I know you are still Clint. But even if it sounds entirely ridiculous or corny, I'm not going to shove Jesus in the Closet. I have a feeling you wouldn't want me to do something like that either, because I think you can relate, only in a different way. Anyway, I understand what you're going through, even if it isn't happening to me. I want it to stop, I want it all to stop. That's what I was saying in my post. All of the violence needs to end. but I don't see that happening. as you can see, I'm still a hippie, but you know what, I know this world isn't ideal, and I hate that I have to come out of my bubble of what I want to be and see what is. I hate that your friend had to die, I hate that there's a war going on at home and in iraq, I hate that there are babies killed and thrown aside... I don't know what should be done, and I don't know what I can do, but help what little I can till I am able to do even more. I'm not going to call America a lost cause, but it's just something that I don't know how to deal with. you know me, I want to live in the woods, alone... This will happen, and I know that the killing will continue, the fighting will continue, the hatred will persist until there is too much, and it drowns out anything good. things aren't getting better. just hang on though. I know I can't ask it of you, and I'm not sure if you'll really listen. I don't want to sound like some broken record or give you the image of a brainwashed bible banshee, I think you might know what I'll say... Look. I do believe in Jesus and God, I know you don't. I know that you are very intelligent. But so am I. I know what you are missing. I don't even think I need to say more. I don't want you to get this idea I've changed. I'm still me, and I still care, but I know what God has done for me. I know He's out there, and what He's even doing for you. Look, I'm not going to turn this into a sermon or political rant. I know I've been absent from you for a long time, and I'm sorry. I care about you tons clint. and I'm so so sorry that you are hurting over all these things that plague you and this country, and I'm sorry that you have lost your friend because of this. really, honestly, I am.
I don't know what else I want to say...
look, I don't know how you feel about me. but if you want to say hello, or want to know what i'm up to, my new lj is: wine_red
I'll see you around or hear from you then...
Love you, Kelly.
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