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A lot has happened in these last few weeks.
Jason has made my heart both soar and crash a thousand times over in the last few days. My computer was finished about three weeks ago and the machine is absolutely beautiful. He must have spent a fortune on it and doesn't expect a thing back in return. I know Jason cares about me, but to what degree I have no idea. I know I mean something to him. About two friday's back now he had Anthony call me from the club. It was May 2nd, Patrick's B-day, though he had to work. Jason shows up hours after I had left. Anthony told me that he told Anthony to Text me about how I need to be at the club because he was there. I showed up there in less than 10 mins. The whole night his eyes were on nothing but me. His attention was mine alone and I took full advantage of it. He was drunk, and very playful. We play fought all night long. His drinks went to his head and he bit me a lot. It was the best night I had with him in a long time. This past friday was his last night at Papa Johns. He left his letter of resignation and his keys and that was it. It was our last night there. I'll miss seeing him all the time. Having that time with him for as long as we had meant the world to me. How life will get along with out that constant companionship I don't know. I feel so lonely right now. LAst night I really needed a hug from him, or some words of encouragement. I had a bad later half of the evening. Jason makes all the bad in my word disappear.
The Combichrist, Birthday MAss. and MSI show was amazing... It was hot , sweaty, grimmy, goodtimes. Dave had fun, so id Jeana. It was a good night and i even got my pic. with Andy of CombiChrist. Well, thanks to Patrick being an ass... "Hey Andy she is too shy to ask to get a pic with you..." Thanks PAtrick, no really!
Dave is graduating soon. He'll be leaving at the end of the month. The Thrill Kill Kult concert is Sat. and I think Haujobb is soon too. Then the 80s prom the weekend after this coming. At least then I will have four days off. that reminds me I need to reschedual my jury duty.
When Dave is gone that will be the last thing I have left that's left here. I've lost my guys. And I think I have lost Jason too. I wonder if The computer was the last goodbye from Jason. The final kiss-off like Indiana did to me with the easil. I shouldn't think like that, but I cannot help it. My heart is broeken because I lack the courage to tell Jason how I really feel about him. How he means the world to me and how it means so much to me just to have a person like him in my life. Alsa. I think I may have lost him though... There is a new girl on his myspace. Yes I am that lame to be worried about some young girl who may have caught his attention. I am scared I may have waited to long to tell him, I love him more than he'll ever know.
Jason has made my heart both soar and crash a thousand times over in the last few days. My computer was finished about three weeks ago and the machine is absolutely beautiful. He must have spent a fortune on it and doesn't expect a thing back in return. I know Jason cares about me, but to what degree I have no idea. I know I mean something to him. About two friday's back now he had Anthony call me from the club. It was May 2nd, Patrick's B-day, though he had to work. Jason shows up hours after I had left. Anthony told me that he told Anthony to Text me about how I need to be at the club because he was there. I showed up there in less than 10 mins. The whole night his eyes were on nothing but me. His attention was mine alone and I took full advantage of it. He was drunk, and very playful. We play fought all night long. His drinks went to his head and he bit me a lot. It was the best night I had with him in a long time. This past friday was his last night at Papa Johns. He left his letter of resignation and his keys and that was it. It was our last night there. I'll miss seeing him all the time. Having that time with him for as long as we had meant the world to me. How life will get along with out that constant companionship I don't know. I feel so lonely right now. LAst night I really needed a hug from him, or some words of encouragement. I had a bad later half of the evening. Jason makes all the bad in my word disappear.
The Combichrist, Birthday MAss. and MSI show was amazing... It was hot , sweaty, grimmy, goodtimes. Dave had fun, so id Jeana. It was a good night and i even got my pic. with Andy of CombiChrist. Well, thanks to Patrick being an ass... "Hey Andy she is too shy to ask to get a pic with you..." Thanks PAtrick, no really!
Dave is graduating soon. He'll be leaving at the end of the month. The Thrill Kill Kult concert is Sat. and I think Haujobb is soon too. Then the 80s prom the weekend after this coming. At least then I will have four days off. that reminds me I need to reschedual my jury duty.
When Dave is gone that will be the last thing I have left that's left here. I've lost my guys. And I think I have lost Jason too. I wonder if The computer was the last goodbye from Jason. The final kiss-off like Indiana did to me with the easil. I shouldn't think like that, but I cannot help it. My heart is broeken because I lack the courage to tell Jason how I really feel about him. How he means the world to me and how it means so much to me just to have a person like him in my life. Alsa. I think I may have lost him though... There is a new girl on his myspace. Yes I am that lame to be worried about some young girl who may have caught his attention. I am scared I may have waited to long to tell him, I love him more than he'll ever know.