photography and movies, my life
We have so much snow here that they are basically closing/canceling everything and it sort of rocks. I was supposed to sit tonight but I was hoping the parents would skip their dinner-thing because I was not too keen on going out in this shit. WELL, THEY DID. Win. So I just did "work" stuff all day -
Work Things
→ I was asked to do press photos for a theater company's PR department. Agonized all day about how much I wanted to charge for something like that. I know I'm supposed to charge more than usual because it's for promotion, but I HATE putting a price on my work, hate. I'm confident in it but I don't want to overcharge, and I'm also wary of undercharging, which comes from the fact that it's hard for me to decide what my time is worth since photography is so much fun for me. If it were some other job that I didn't really like, I feel like it'd be easy for me to say, "I'll do it for $____ and if that's too much, then good, I don't have to do the shitty thing I don't even want to do", you know? UGH. And it's hard for me to even ask for what I think my photos are worth because I know I'm new. I know I'm just starting out. It shouldn't have an effect - if they like the photos, they like the photos regardless of quantifiable experience - but I know it does. So fuck, I am just so lksdjfjkah about money conversations, I hate them I hate them.
→ THERE IS SO MUCH LEGAL SHIT AND LIABILITY ISSUES THAT I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT OF. IT'S DAUNTING, IT MAKES ME NOT EVEN WANT TO GET INTO THIS.
→ QUESTION: does anyone know how to create copyrighted data CD/DVDs on a Mac? I did think to google this but didn't find anything useful to what I need. It's all about how to "password protect" discs or "burn and copy material that's already copyrighted". NO, neither of those things help or are what I want, DAMN YOU GOOGLE!
/ Work Things
Can you tell I'm PMSing. Because I am.
Saw Black Swan last night. Enjoyed it. Was confused by it, a lot of thought was sparked. But I feel like it was missing something. I understand the point of it, I understand what it's truly about but some of it felt too easy to get away within the confines of the situation. Maybe it was over-hyped but I expected something more to be going on. IDK. I'm seeing it again and hopefully I'll be able to offer more defined commentary. Visually, though, it was stunning, freaked the shit out of me. Loved the color palette and the sparkle, and Portman and Kunis were both effing fantastic. Especially Portman. I cannot even imagine what she went through to prepare for that, she looked a literal ballerina and there were shots that started close-up on feet or hands or something so I assumed it was a double but then they pulled back to reveal it was her the entire time and I was SO impressed by her grace. I loved it. ALSO, TOTALLY GEEKING THE FUCK OUT OVER THEIR POSTERS FOR THIS, OKAY. Moar scary dance movies, moar.
Speaking of, I also watched Suspiria. My first thought - the editing sucked, the ending was an underwhelming disappointment and the film itself is overrated (probably was scary back in '77, just doesn't hold up well). Did I enjoy the visuals, like the maggots and the lynching and the falling into tangled wire? IMMENSELY. Did I enjoy the color and nightmarish-style and the bold lighting? YES. So, was it worth it to sit through? YYY.
Since I've been snowed in, I just watched Buried. Loved the cinematography and coloring, and I guess the ending is sort of ballsy but I'm glad I didn't go see it in a theater. Just... I was never truly drawn in, I kept waiting and waiting and then it was over. I spent most of the film trying to figure out production elements and where their budget went. Which was fun and valuable time-spending, but still. I was more attached to the (AMAZING) opening credits than I was to anything else that happened after them.
AND NOW I AM GOING TO GO READ. "What?!" I know, right. But it is in the name of research! And in preparation for a very important conversation with the author and I'd like to be ~armed with knowledge~. I wish I had wine right now, it'd be too cozy-adorable - snow all the way up my window, multicolored Christmas lights along my wall, curled up in my electric blanket, with my glasses and wine and book about legal scandal. Still true, I suppose, but somehow the (red - I like white but this has to be red) wine just makes the visual. It's moments/thoughts like these that make me hate winter a little less.
Work Things
→ I was asked to do press photos for a theater company's PR department. Agonized all day about how much I wanted to charge for something like that. I know I'm supposed to charge more than usual because it's for promotion, but I HATE putting a price on my work, hate. I'm confident in it but I don't want to overcharge, and I'm also wary of undercharging, which comes from the fact that it's hard for me to decide what my time is worth since photography is so much fun for me. If it were some other job that I didn't really like, I feel like it'd be easy for me to say, "I'll do it for $____ and if that's too much, then good, I don't have to do the shitty thing I don't even want to do", you know? UGH. And it's hard for me to even ask for what I think my photos are worth because I know I'm new. I know I'm just starting out. It shouldn't have an effect - if they like the photos, they like the photos regardless of quantifiable experience - but I know it does. So fuck, I am just so lksdjfjkah about money conversations, I hate them I hate them.
→ THERE IS SO MUCH LEGAL SHIT AND LIABILITY ISSUES THAT I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT OF. IT'S DAUNTING, IT MAKES ME NOT EVEN WANT TO GET INTO THIS.
→ QUESTION: does anyone know how to create copyrighted data CD/DVDs on a Mac? I did think to google this but didn't find anything useful to what I need. It's all about how to "password protect" discs or "burn and copy material that's already copyrighted". NO, neither of those things help or are what I want, DAMN YOU GOOGLE!
/ Work Things
Can you tell I'm PMSing. Because I am.
Saw Black Swan last night. Enjoyed it. Was confused by it, a lot of thought was sparked. But I feel like it was missing something. I understand the point of it, I understand what it's truly about but some of it felt too easy to get away within the confines of the situation. Maybe it was over-hyped but I expected something more to be going on. IDK. I'm seeing it again and hopefully I'll be able to offer more defined commentary. Visually, though, it was stunning, freaked the shit out of me. Loved the color palette and the sparkle, and Portman and Kunis were both effing fantastic. Especially Portman. I cannot even imagine what she went through to prepare for that, she looked a literal ballerina and there were shots that started close-up on feet or hands or something so I assumed it was a double but then they pulled back to reveal it was her the entire time and I was SO impressed by her grace. I loved it. ALSO, TOTALLY GEEKING THE FUCK OUT OVER THEIR POSTERS FOR THIS, OKAY. Moar scary dance movies, moar.
Speaking of, I also watched Suspiria. My first thought - the editing sucked, the ending was an underwhelming disappointment and the film itself is overrated (probably was scary back in '77, just doesn't hold up well). Did I enjoy the visuals, like the maggots and the lynching and the falling into tangled wire? IMMENSELY. Did I enjoy the color and nightmarish-style and the bold lighting? YES. So, was it worth it to sit through? YYY.
Since I've been snowed in, I just watched Buried. Loved the cinematography and coloring, and I guess the ending is sort of ballsy but I'm glad I didn't go see it in a theater. Just... I was never truly drawn in, I kept waiting and waiting and then it was over. I spent most of the film trying to figure out production elements and where their budget went. Which was fun and valuable time-spending, but still. I was more attached to the (AMAZING) opening credits than I was to anything else that happened after them.
AND NOW I AM GOING TO GO READ. "What?!" I know, right. But it is in the name of research! And in preparation for a very important conversation with the author and I'd like to be ~armed with knowledge~. I wish I had wine right now, it'd be too cozy-adorable - snow all the way up my window, multicolored Christmas lights along my wall, curled up in my electric blanket, with my glasses and wine and book about legal scandal. Still true, I suppose, but somehow the (red - I like white but this has to be red) wine just makes the visual. It's moments/thoughts like these that make me hate winter a little less.