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→ I [dreamt] Glee!Finn was my boyfriend. And we were in my OLD old house, in the basement. We were cuddling in my old brown chair, under a yellow blanket, and he was touching my legs and they were so smooth and this is probably because in real life, my legs are so hairy right now. ANYWAY. So we're cuddling and just trying to make out but then my friend Riane's little sister (lol wtf) came in and started playing Nintendo SUPER loud just to be a bitch. And then she had a shark? And was shoving it at us, I avoided its teeth but it had spikes on its tail that poked me and they hurt like hell. Finn stormed off, I have no idea where he went. So I was all pissy and then my sister told me that he went in the closet. And IRL in this house, there was a closet, and in the back of it there was a little passage that we used to hang out in, and on the other end of it there was another closet that connected to my bedroom. So I went in through the hallway, expecting Finn to be there but it was really just full of shit. And I was all, "Finn! Finn~!~" BUT HE WAS NOT THERE. So I followed it all the way through and came out to find that he had cleaned my entire bedroom for me so that we'd have a place to be alone. IT WAS SO NICE, OMG, HE FOLDED ALL OF MY CLOTHES AND EVERYTHING. I saw that he'd left my Madame Alexander doll of the Wicked Witch on my CLOSET FLOOR but I didn't bitch at him because I just figured he didn't know. So then I was in black underwear and I crawled in my bed with him and we were going to have sex and he asked if I had a condom. In my head I was like, "um, why don't you have one" but he was lucky because I had some in my underwear drawer. I got up to get one and LOL, they were like, in Sweet-tart wrappers? You know, the blue and magenta with the white font, they looked like massive Sweet-tarts and their gimmick was that they were flavored either sweet or tart and it was a surprise. lol wtf. So I ripped one off and went back to him and pulled the comforter off because I knew it'd get too hot, and then suddenly he was me or something because I just saw a woman's body with a black bra and underwear. I got in and then suddenly he was Olivia Wilde, she put her hand on my face and was all, "Hey - I love you" but she had like, ketchup on her cheek and this was probably because I spent time last night clone-stamping out crusted-on snot in the portraits I did yesterday. Anyway, it was weird.
→ Then I heard my grandma out in the hallway and she was fighting with my mom, and said something about "Well what would you do, would you have sex with Nick?!" and my mom was like, "NO." I was brushing my teeth in my old bathroom and I poked my head out and I was like, "EVERYONE NEEDS TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I AM AN ADULT AND I HAVE SEX NOW, OKAY." And then there was a party in my old storage room, Nick walked past me in a red sweater, also from the shoot I did yesterday. Like, how random. You just haaave to stop by my subconscious, don't you. You just have to show your face. Then, he was tending bar and I walked past him to get to Kiel, except my camera bag hit him and he spilled. And I was running all over looking for one specific bathroom, I swear I've been in that dream!building before. There's a world built entirely in my head that I seem to revisit. ANYWAY, crackly and weird, lots of warm tones, short rooms with high ceilings, weird. Kiel knew where the bathroom was.
→ I don't know who I was with but we were out on a football field at night. On the sidelines, there were a bunch of different film/television sets, and there were people running newscasts and things, the reporting desks. I screamed about SOMETHING and the second I did, I remembered I was near sets and it was a horrible move. A female newscaster screamed at me from her on-air desk and we all took off running. We went through trees and things, and then there was a huge pointed hill we had to climb. I got to the top and it was SO HARD TO GET OVER, I swung my leg up but I had nothing to give me momentum to flip over to the other side. I remember thinking, "Squeeze your butt, squeeze your center," all of these dance things. I finally got over.
→ I was shooting a wedding at my old high school, the bridesmaids came into the cafeteria in fuchsia dresses and sat down at tables and all opened up their Macs. I got a shot of all of them in a row with their computers lol. Then Mrs O was there, leading some dance or something, so I went up a level and took a couple of aerial shots before I realized that some other girl was up there freaking the fuck out about Taylor Lautner (WTF). And then he was there and the girl was excited that she got his number and then I wanted it. So she handed me her phone to copy it but it was SO HARD TO NAVIGATE. And I remember thinking I didn't actually want his number because I wanted HIM, I just wanted his number because he was Taylor Lautner and I figured it was a good number just to have. Except he was in her phone a million times - one was just a keymash in the number entry slot, and then there were three more, because apparently Taylor Lautner needs three numbers. One for the west coast, one for the east coast, and one for Tanzania... ? So I tried to take them but my phone was so confusing and I was freaking out because I was missing some guy on stilts down in the wedding party but I didn't care because Taylor Lautner's number was way more important.
... yeah.[/dreams]
★ I had a little Christmas shoot yesterday. I was supposed to get shots that the mom could use to make ornaments, but I got a bunch of her playing with them too that I really, really love. I felt so bad, they were still sleeping when I got there so she had to wake them up and omg they were so precious, all tired still. They woke up in a hurry, though. They were difficult to shoot because they had pretty much zero focus but it was still a blast.
★ I ran ~errands~ today like a big girl. And then I went to the liquor store and got wine because my mom and I are having wine & Sex and the City night. ♥
★ STILL NOT OVER MIA MICHAELS WORKING ON HOUSE. NO, NOT EVEN FUCKING *CLOSE* TO OVER IT.
★ SPEAKING OF DANCE, BLACK SWAN COMES OUT HERE TOMORROW. KLJSDFHSA.
★ ALSO SPEAKING OF DANCE STILL, got an email about possibly dancing with my fellow dance team alumni at our high school's alumni night on the 21st. Haven't decided if I'm down with that or not. I was looking forward to going just to GO, to see my old teachers and friends, just relax and hang out, but if we dance at halftime I'll be back in the practice room a lot and I won't be able to shoot and IDK. Not to mention the fact that I am out of shape. But I miss it and I miss doing make-up and hair and I really, really miss how dance smells. Everyone's hair spray and perfume mixing together, I love it.
★ Finding myself start to draw towards Celine again. Maybe my life knows I'm going to be needing her soon, IDK. A strange pull. I love her, I miss her. I feel it ready and waiting to come on. Her bursting into Imagine on Larry King sparked my heart.
→ Then I heard my grandma out in the hallway and she was fighting with my mom, and said something about "Well what would you do, would you have sex with Nick?!" and my mom was like, "NO." I was brushing my teeth in my old bathroom and I poked my head out and I was like, "EVERYONE NEEDS TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I AM AN ADULT AND I HAVE SEX NOW, OKAY." And then there was a party in my old storage room, Nick walked past me in a red sweater, also from the shoot I did yesterday. Like, how random. You just haaave to stop by my subconscious, don't you. You just have to show your face. Then, he was tending bar and I walked past him to get to Kiel, except my camera bag hit him and he spilled. And I was running all over looking for one specific bathroom, I swear I've been in that dream!building before. There's a world built entirely in my head that I seem to revisit. ANYWAY, crackly and weird, lots of warm tones, short rooms with high ceilings, weird. Kiel knew where the bathroom was.
→ I don't know who I was with but we were out on a football field at night. On the sidelines, there were a bunch of different film/television sets, and there were people running newscasts and things, the reporting desks. I screamed about SOMETHING and the second I did, I remembered I was near sets and it was a horrible move. A female newscaster screamed at me from her on-air desk and we all took off running. We went through trees and things, and then there was a huge pointed hill we had to climb. I got to the top and it was SO HARD TO GET OVER, I swung my leg up but I had nothing to give me momentum to flip over to the other side. I remember thinking, "Squeeze your butt, squeeze your center," all of these dance things. I finally got over.
→ I was shooting a wedding at my old high school, the bridesmaids came into the cafeteria in fuchsia dresses and sat down at tables and all opened up their Macs. I got a shot of all of them in a row with their computers lol. Then Mrs O was there, leading some dance or something, so I went up a level and took a couple of aerial shots before I realized that some other girl was up there freaking the fuck out about Taylor Lautner (WTF). And then he was there and the girl was excited that she got his number and then I wanted it. So she handed me her phone to copy it but it was SO HARD TO NAVIGATE. And I remember thinking I didn't actually want his number because I wanted HIM, I just wanted his number because he was Taylor Lautner and I figured it was a good number just to have. Except he was in her phone a million times - one was just a keymash in the number entry slot, and then there were three more, because apparently Taylor Lautner needs three numbers. One for the west coast, one for the east coast, and one for Tanzania... ? So I tried to take them but my phone was so confusing and I was freaking out because I was missing some guy on stilts down in the wedding party but I didn't care because Taylor Lautner's number was way more important.
... yeah.[/dreams]
★ I had a little Christmas shoot yesterday. I was supposed to get shots that the mom could use to make ornaments, but I got a bunch of her playing with them too that I really, really love. I felt so bad, they were still sleeping when I got there so she had to wake them up and omg they were so precious, all tired still. They woke up in a hurry, though. They were difficult to shoot because they had pretty much zero focus but it was still a blast.
★ I ran ~errands~ today like a big girl. And then I went to the liquor store and got wine because my mom and I are having wine & Sex and the City night. ♥
★ STILL NOT OVER MIA MICHAELS WORKING ON HOUSE. NO, NOT EVEN FUCKING *CLOSE* TO OVER IT.
★ SPEAKING OF DANCE, BLACK SWAN COMES OUT HERE TOMORROW. KLJSDFHSA.
★ ALSO SPEAKING OF DANCE STILL, got an email about possibly dancing with my fellow dance team alumni at our high school's alumni night on the 21st. Haven't decided if I'm down with that or not. I was looking forward to going just to GO, to see my old teachers and friends, just relax and hang out, but if we dance at halftime I'll be back in the practice room a lot and I won't be able to shoot and IDK. Not to mention the fact that I am out of shape. But I miss it and I miss doing make-up and hair and I really, really miss how dance smells. Everyone's hair spray and perfume mixing together, I love it.
★ Finding myself start to draw towards Celine again. Maybe my life knows I'm going to be needing her soon, IDK. A strange pull. I love her, I miss her. I feel it ready and waiting to come on. Her bursting into Imagine on Larry King sparked my heart.