I JUST GOT SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW MY JOURNAL. I think I forgot I changed it, and I haven't seen it in three days, and I just saw it and OH MY GOD CANNOT EXPLAIN. ♥ I HAVE MISSED YOU.
So frick, lol, Randy and I got in a fight on Thursday night, complete with me storming out and him running after me into the front yard. "I'm not one of those girls who leaves just to see if you'll follow her - I leave because I ACTUALLY WANT TO FUCKING LEAVE!!1" But he got me to come back in, he took my bag and my computer and set it down and hugged me and asked if I would "please come back inside with him to talk" blah blah, so I did and was up until 5 in the morning, and then I went home and I had to get up again at 7 to get my tailbone fixed and then I had to get up again at 10:30 to get ready for the ~cabin~. So basically I'm tired as fuck, okay. I never get any sleep anymore, seriously.
And then I was freaking out because my dad wanted to take us to the casino on the way up there because my sister has never been, and thank GOD I remembered to get an ID because that would have fucking sucked. So I couldn't find it anywhere at all and ran a little late but I finally found it (under my bed lol) and then we went to my dad's. We stopped at McDonalds and ate in the carwash lol and then also went to the liquor store. I fell asleep on the way up, or at least tried to, but the music was loud and so was my fucking father. I am so irritated with him right now. And he called on Thursday when I was at Randy's and I was so pissed and he was telling me stupid stories about work and it's like, I'm fucking busy, okay. And I told him I was at Randy's but he kept talking anyway. "What's the matter, you sound irritated." I AM. "Well fuck if you're irritated, I don't even want to talk to you because you're pissing me off." LOL, I'm pissing YOU off. Okay. So anyway.
We get to the casino and they don't even card us. LOL GODDAMN. My dad went to the blackjack tables and OH MY GOD YOU GUYS THEY HAD WIZARD OF OZ MACHINES!!! I. FREAKED. OUT. I never got to play because these fucking OLD UGLY BITCHES WERE WHORING THEM THE *ENTIRE* TIME but oh my god they were so so beautiful and I need to play, need. THEY ALSO HAD A SPAM MACHINE. I TOOK A PHOTO. So yeah we went back to the tables to see how my dad was doing and there was this group of guys our age kind of hovering around him and they were talking to my dad and my dad to them like they were all bff. And one of them, GOD he was gorgeous, perfect face, blonde hair, amazing smile, confident as hell, BLACK COWBOY HAT, red shirt, huge gold belt buckle. And god, that smile!! And he was so flirty and cute and outgoing and it was one of those connection things and I'm so sad I won't ever see him again!! :( I cannot even explain how attracted I was to him.
We got here and I love it here, I took a fuck ton of pictures because I just kept noticing adorable little shit everywhere. There is just SO much to look at, my grandma decorates the shit out of absolutely everything. She's the most artistic person I know. And although I don't really have a close relationship with her, I realized today that I probably would not even have half the creativity I do now if not for her genetics. I don't know. But seriously, I can't wait to show you because you will die.
She's throwing me and my sister a party in August. Because my sister just graduated and when *I* graduated, we weren't speaking so they never threw me a party, so now they're throwing one BIG party for the both of us. AND I AM SO EXCITED BECAUSE SHE HAS SO MANY IDEAS AND SHE'S SO EXCITED AND SHE LOVES COLOR SO MUCH AND SHE WANTS COLOR EVERYWHERE AND I LOVE COLOR AND WE'RE ORDERING A FUCK TON OF PIZZA AND GETTING LEIS FOR EVERYONE AND HAVING FLOWERS AND GAMES AND SKDJLFHAJ. She is so excited and I know, knowing her, that it will be totally fucking quirky and fun and huge and colorful. She wanted my input and I told her I completely trusted her creative judgment and I can normally never say that to people because I'm kind of a control freak and a perfectionist but I know she will make it so fun.
We went out on the neighbors' boat and the wife, Joyce, she makes homemade candy and it was amazing and then her little 5 year old grandson kept bringing me and my sister candy and he is so cute and so in love with us and we want to kidnap him. We went to bed and I watched Choke on my laptop, which I absolutely loved, HOWEVER, FOR SOME INEXPLICABLE REASON, I DO NOT HAVE THE ENDING OF THE FILM. I have the first hour of it. I have to redownload it, which is fine, but it sucks having to wait two days for the ending!
So now I am left to wonder. GOODNIGHT, KTHXBYE.
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The fucking phone in here rang at 9:30 and we heard my dad laugh outside so I know he fucking called it even though he denied it. Fucking prick, I am so sick of him, seriously. He gets drunk and then fucks with us and when we don't laugh or kid around back, he turns into such a bitter asshole about it and god, I am so sick of the drinking. I don't even really have any desire at all to drink this trip just because they piss me off so much. His mom's fine, she gets really nice and funny but he gets fucking annoying and gets pissed when you don't laugh at his UNFUNNY JOKES AND SKJDFA. So anyway, he wakes us up at the asscrack of dawn, which makes me hate him as much sober as I do when he's drunk.
We went down to the main cabin and had ~egg in a bag~ for breakfast. We crack eggs into ziplock bags, and then put in cheese and ham and tomatoes and whatever else we want, as if we were making an omelette, and then we zip them up and drop them into a pan of boiling water for 10 minutes. And they come out and you open up your bag and dump it onto your plate and it's this perfect little omelette. We wrote our names on our bags with Sharpies and for my dad's, my sister decided he should be Douche instead of Terry, and he was like, "That's DoucheBAG, to you, bitch." and so we ended up writing Douche's Bag on his. LOL do you see what we did there? My grandma: "Angela, do you even know what a douche bag is?" "Um, YEAH." "Well okay then." LOL.
I'm so pissed I forgot my iPod. IDEK where it is, tbh.
We ate breakfast and then went into town because we needed poptarts and beer, LOLOL DKLJSFHSALKJFHSA, and my grandma also needed bird seed, but then I got really pissed because it took forever and we kept stopping at fucking garage sales and doing all of this shit that I didn't know we were going to do, and if I had, I wouldn't have gone along with. The only saving grace was the American Idol CD she had in her car. NO, THIS WAS NOT MY DOING, I SWEAR IT. Her friend made it for her and we got in the car and she was like, "SO. I have my ~American Idols~ CD in here, CJ at work made it for me, I. LOVE. IT." And it was all Adam and Kris and skldjfhaskdjlf sjfhskjfh asfhakj. So that helped, but still. Also, it is such a pain in the ass getting in and out of that car with my tailbone, and god, we were ready to go home finally and then our fucking neighbor called up here and asked us to stop at the store and get her some ~rice~, so we had to go BACK to the store even though we'd already been. AND. NOT ONLY THAT, but before we left, we went over TO HER HOUSE to explicitly ASK HER if she needed anything in town and she said no. ASJFHJFA I WANT TO BE DONE WITH THIS GODDAMN STRING OF ERRANDS ALREADY.
I got back and it was too cold to lay out in my swimsuit, so I took a nap and basically told everyone to fuck themselves. I was gone for two hours and then my sister came up here and was like, "Josh is here and he really wants to see you. I told him you were sleeping and he told me to tell you to wake up." He's the cute little 5 year old next door. So I got up for him and pretty much nothing or no one else. But it was so cute, I walked outside and he started waving and "HI!!" and he ran up and brought me one of his little bottles of Sunny D and oh my god I died. Then he wanted to show me how the fish "nibble his fingers" so we laid on the end of the dock and he put his finger in the water and waited for them to bite him so I could see lolol. He wanted feed the fish for real so we got crackers and crumpled them up and he is so adorable, you guys, he was all fucking upset that the little fish weren't getting any. Because the big ones always got to them first. And then his grandma was telling me that when they fish on their boat, he always feels bad for the fish that think they're getting food but then they get caught with a hook instead, so whenever they catch a fish, he makes her put a piece of corn in their mouth. SUCH A CUTE FUCKING KID.
Uncle Ron saw my desktop (your greenish Scenery one,
soonersurrender!) and asked if I knew who that woman was. LOL DUH. I was like, "Oh, this is from my favorite show, House." and he was like, "Yeah but do you know who she is?" Oh, that's Lisa Edelstein. "Okay." LOLLL AND THEN TODAY, we were at the grocery store and my dad was looking at a magazine and I walked up to give him shit and I kind of yelled, "What, Hustler?" and he was like, "No, Maxim" and then put it back on the shelf. And I saw that it was Olivia and I was like, "Oh, I love her!" and he was like, "Who, Olivia?" LOL LIKE HE'S ON A FIRST NAME BASIS WITH HER OR SOMETHING, I DIED.
We had these hamburgers for dinner, they had bacon and cheese like baked into them and they were really good and then we got drunk and played cards lol. OH NO, but first, we all fought about politics by the fire. Oh my god, my dad and I got into it SO bad and my grandma was totes on my side but it was so funny because my dad, he got SO worked up and SO passionate and he's SO smart and articulate even though I don't agree with him. I told him to get a youtube channel and just post videos of himself bitching about the world and he was like, "Will you film me?~!" and I was like, "LOL YES." But yeah then we came in and had s'mores and played cards, my dad and I played cribbage and I totes won and he was a soar loser. Then we played Showdown or some shit, and my grandma gave us each a dollar LOL because she wanted to play so bad. She won the first round, but said she wanted to keep the money on the table so then I ended up winning 5 dollars. And it was so sweet because someone said something about my mom, like "don't tell your mom we're drunk and gambling" and I was like "LOL she'd probably wanna come, actually!" and Karen, my grandma, was like, "Actually no, I like your mom. I'm okay with your mom. IDK if your dad told you this, but at your sister's graduation, I hugged your mom, I hugged her mom, we all hugged and I was so okay, I felt so good about it, I said what was in the past was in the past and we're just forgetting about it." And that made me SO happy because my grandma is not the type you'd picture that coming out of her mouth, you know? She was so mature about the whole thing and so sincere when she told me about it.
And now my sister is doing my tailbone as we speak lol. Also, the creativity flows like a fucking river up here. I usually can finish a video whenever I come up here, however this time I just felt like shit and wanted to sleep and I don't know, but when I DID sit down to edit, it was so unbelievably easy. And let me explain - I've been working on this one video since... fuck, wow I started it around The Itch. I made some good headway a couple of weeks ago but there are still four holes where I can't even think of anything. Sat down, filled in two of them almost instantly and I cannot even explain. I played it and just knew what was supposed to go there, I have no idea where it came from. Also now these are some of my favorite parts. I almost wish I would have done this more because I probably could have really finished it, I was just too uptight from everything and I wasn't in the mood to edit. BUT IDK, IT'S JUST A REALLY GOOD PLACE. Then today, I brought my laptop out onto the hammock and faced the lake and then a bit later my dad came out and started swinging me and I was so fucking happy just to be there doing that. And it was like 80 degrees out but I got goosebumps and they kept coming and coming and god I love editing, okay.
We left and we had to say goodbye to Josh and my dad was like, "They need hugs", so he came over and gave me a hug and oh my christ he is so tiny to hug!! I died!! We stopped at the casino again and my sister and I watched the Oz machines like HAWKS and finally one of the two opened up and OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD, YOU GUYS. I HAVE NO WORDS. I almost cried, no fucking joke. Because it has the music, and your seat shakes, and you have speakers right by your head, and that's not even it. LIKE OKAY, WHEN YOU WIN OR GET "WILD" BOXES IN A LINE, IT TURNS INTO CLIPS FROM THE FILM. Like, actual footage of it, of them skipping down the road. And then I got a ~bonus~ round, so I got to pick one of three squares, and i PICKED ONE AND IT FLIPPED OVER AND IT WAS ALL "~FLYING MONKEY BONUS~" AND THEN SMOKE CAME AND THE RL WITCH POPPED UP AND FLEW HER MONKEYS ACROSS MY SCREEN. And then it changed to the Forbidden Forest and was all dark and purple and shit and monkeys came and ripped the slots apart to reveal points and oh. my. god. AND THEN. Randomly, instead of stopping, the slots would keep going and you'd hear "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" instrumentals and Glinda's fucking bubble would come from the top corner and she'd cover your screen and her actual voice would say something as she waved her wand and gave you strips of Wild spaces and oh my god I was like, sat flailing and ready to legit cry at this fucking slot machine. It was the most amazing machine I have ever seen, regardless of the subject. The fact that it just happened to be my favorite film of all time was just an amazing, amazing bonus. You guys, I am not joking, some day when I'm really depressed and have money to burn, I am going to make the two hour drive up there just to sit and have Liss!time and play that because it makes me more happy than anyone could even know. Like no matter what is making me depressed, I feel like it could fix it.
On the way home, I had to pee SO bad but I played a game with myself just to see if I could do it, to see if I could hold it lol. I HELD IT AT BREAKING POINT FOR NEARLY AN HOUR, I WAS SO PROUD OF MYSELF, YOU GUYS. It was so mental and idk how long/much I can talk about this without being ridiculous, but it was a huge, triumphant deal, okay, just know that, I want you to know that.
CABIN PHOTOS LATAR. I die, it is just littered with random, quirky artistic shit fucking everywhere. Like no one else I know could pull off leaning rusty headboards on the side of the house and have it look fucking awesome. And I notice something new every single time I set foot outside or cross the yard.