"Are we losing control?" | "Yes," under my breath, but I kept going.

[lissie_pissie]

★ If you don't care and/or are short on time, I give you the abridged version. It is basically the gist.

Abridged Version→ I had a beautiful day. I learned how to DJ, I picked it up so quickly, and I am so completely confident that if I needed to play a set while he ran off and did something, I could. I had a fucking BLAST

Comments

[iwant_sprinkles]

Thinking or no thinking, I feel like this is going to work out on it's own? This entry reads a lot like when you first started seeing CJ (I'm not saying that HE is like CJ, I'm saying that the way you feel right now, on paper, comes across in much the same way), and I know that you had similar issues back then about being in a serious relationship, and you got through them. If you like this guy enough, you'll get through them and you'll be whatever you're supposed to be - whether you freak out or not. If you feel like you want to back off and you DO, then it's because you truly weren't ready for this. If you freak out and get through it anyway - like you have done before - then at least you know what you're getting into.

I don't think that there's any such thing as liking somebody too much. If you like him more than as a fuck buddy, then that probably just means that on some level you DO want that relationship, logically speaking. I understand it being scary, but things are often only scary until you do them (Not TWSS code for "DO HIM NAO").

My point is that the freaking out is normal and that I know you do that. You'll figure it out.