pedicures and fighting with men in suits

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I HAVE A NEW SYSTEM, WE WILL SEE IF IT WORKS - I decided that the time from when I wake up to the time that Jason comes home for lunch will be blogging/personal photo time. Then from the time he leaves until 5pm will be work time - color correcting, redoing my website, finally getting a logo (you'd think it'd be easy for me but I actually have a

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It did go well. We just got in another fight like 2 hours ago, though, because he had left for a meeting and I had such a good morning by myself - blogging and watching Teen Mom, and then he comes home and starts talking about what a bad show it is. I got offended but apologized and said it was probably because I had just been blogging about our fights when he came home. "Why, to relive them?" like I was some idiot. It's not torture for me, it's part of living an honest life. I don't NOT write about things and hope to forget them just because they're painful - I own and acknowledge them because THAT IS THE BEAUTY OF LIFE. ALL OF IT. So it just escalated and he left and then came back two minutes later and pissed me off MORE and kjldshfkljhasfdjkla. And it bugs me because whenever he doesn't get enough attention or senses that he's losing me even just a little bit, he leaps into victim "feel sorry for me" mode and that's the mode he was constantly in back in the beginning when I refused to date him, it is not attractive. And he's still gone and my mood is much better, go figure. We may be heading for a break.

I AM ADDICTED AND THEY ARE PLAYING LIKE THE WHOLE SERIES, I KEEP SECRETLY PRAYING FOR IT TO STOP, lol, so I can do something else.