regarding my hiatus

[lisanougatcoins]

i dont know exactly until when this hiatus will last but i cant help but feel bad for not being active here in lj. to be honest, i've changed a lot compared to the last time i left a post here. it seems that i've drifted so far away from kat-tun because of the sudden breakdown of links. i havent even updated my magazine archives and i started deleting them one by one because of the spacial concerns. to those whom i let down, im really sorry and i miss you guys a whole lot. until now i really do feel bad but as far as i know, school has been eating up most of my free time including sleep. for now i'd just like to say that im well. i got to expand my preferences saying that now i actually listen to kpop when before i said i'd rather die than do it. i admit that and as i said before, even from there you'll see how much i've changed throughout the short span of months. it shocks me when i take notice of how much i havent even looked at the faces of the KAT-TUN members. i'm really sorry and it seriously pierces my heart. they have been moving on with their own progressions and here i am being selfish and thinking that their current style isnt the real thing i faced compared to the first time i saw them. really, im very apologetic for a lot of things. hopefully when my break comes, i could actually catch up and make up for the times i spent not going here. i really regret how i dont even log in LJ anymore when before, i start and end my days whilst staring at the communities and enjoying every bit of the fandom.

stay safe guys and if it's possible, i would really like to hear from you.

♥lisa

ps: if you want consistent contact, im currently making use of my tumblr. how ironic really, before i thought tumblr sucks so i dont open it but look at what happened now. again, sorry to my followers there. you could see the steady shifting in fandom.