LIFE
Hiiiiii.
So life goes on.
Its never the same, but it goes on.
not a day passes where im not thinking about Cody.
the funeral was sad. i was a mess.
i hung out with his family, it was nice, it was kinda a relief to see that they are holding up. but being in his house again just made me fucking sad. sitting in his room, on his computer, with his mom, and talking to Bobby n everything. When im leaving my house i think i see him, or sometimes i think i hear him playing his music or guitar, its just fucking weird.
but life goes on.
i dunno wut to say about the past month. thres been good, and theres been bad. Schools over, i kinda fucked up. prolly gunna have to take english again.
My birthday was amazing tho. was pretty much drunk that whole week. haha. thats bad, im not all about that. Joey was nice enough to open his house up to me... but i returned the favor. rofllll ok bad joke. Beej n Britt were totally there for my whole birthday. and i still thank them for that. My birthday couldnt have been at a better time. i needed a wild week. and that did it for me, took me like a week to recover. got my lip pierced, and i love it. i think its cute on me. My dad hated it, he like cried when he saw it. it was weird.
i feel like im working all the time, yet i never have any money. it sucks. i like my job, but i still would like a little better paying job. i would like not move out, but im in no rush at all.
drank to much last weekend and blacked out. apparently i was having a good time, i dont remember. Thats never happen to me b4, i have never blacked out from drinking, it was fucking scary, i thought i got drugged. but then the next day i realized how much i drank. David saved my life, well not rlly, but he took care of me, like alwz. didnt even know how i got into my bed, was hung over all of mothers day, and the next day after that my sides were hurting from all the throwing up. that was bad.
been hangin out with amanda n shane and NP ppl again. idk. i like it for now. but i have to much history gone wrong in NP, its stupid. but life goes on right?!
Booboo hurt his leg and it makes me sooo sad. i never seen him so sad in his life. he hid under the bed for 2 days, now hes finally out and about, but he still wont walk on his leg. i dont know wut to do, i have no money to take him to the vet, and he seems to be getting better, even tho hes not walking on his back left leg. so im just gunna see how it goes for the next week.
its summer & i have no plans.
no pland for anything.
ive kinda lost all hope.
so im just living day to day.
with a smile of course.
=)
<3
So life goes on.
Its never the same, but it goes on.
not a day passes where im not thinking about Cody.
the funeral was sad. i was a mess.
i hung out with his family, it was nice, it was kinda a relief to see that they are holding up. but being in his house again just made me fucking sad. sitting in his room, on his computer, with his mom, and talking to Bobby n everything. When im leaving my house i think i see him, or sometimes i think i hear him playing his music or guitar, its just fucking weird.
but life goes on.
i dunno wut to say about the past month. thres been good, and theres been bad. Schools over, i kinda fucked up. prolly gunna have to take english again.
My birthday was amazing tho. was pretty much drunk that whole week. haha. thats bad, im not all about that. Joey was nice enough to open his house up to me... but i returned the favor. rofllll ok bad joke. Beej n Britt were totally there for my whole birthday. and i still thank them for that. My birthday couldnt have been at a better time. i needed a wild week. and that did it for me, took me like a week to recover. got my lip pierced, and i love it. i think its cute on me. My dad hated it, he like cried when he saw it. it was weird.
i feel like im working all the time, yet i never have any money. it sucks. i like my job, but i still would like a little better paying job. i would like not move out, but im in no rush at all.
drank to much last weekend and blacked out. apparently i was having a good time, i dont remember. Thats never happen to me b4, i have never blacked out from drinking, it was fucking scary, i thought i got drugged. but then the next day i realized how much i drank. David saved my life, well not rlly, but he took care of me, like alwz. didnt even know how i got into my bed, was hung over all of mothers day, and the next day after that my sides were hurting from all the throwing up. that was bad.
been hangin out with amanda n shane and NP ppl again. idk. i like it for now. but i have to much history gone wrong in NP, its stupid. but life goes on right?!
Booboo hurt his leg and it makes me sooo sad. i never seen him so sad in his life. he hid under the bed for 2 days, now hes finally out and about, but he still wont walk on his leg. i dont know wut to do, i have no money to take him to the vet, and he seems to be getting better, even tho hes not walking on his back left leg. so im just gunna see how it goes for the next week.
its summer & i have no plans.
no pland for anything.
ive kinda lost all hope.
so im just living day to day.
with a smile of course.
=)
<3