cody
Cody.
The cutest little boy when u moved next door. I dont exactly remember how old you were, but you were fer sure still in elementary school i think. i know i was only about 2 years older than you but you were still so cute. You and your red hightop converse that i made fun of you for having. i thought they were clown shows, and to top it all off u rode around on a little pocket bike. I would just laugh n make circus noises. But as we both got older we both began to be friends. You were a little brat, especially when you were around your other friends, but I knew that wasnt really you. I knew who you were when you were on your own. We would cuddle, n get in wrestling fights. HA, that one year on thanks giving when we set my garage up to be this big wrestling ring. Way Funny. i know i have pictures somewhere, im gunna have to find those. My gosh my mom hated when we went out in the ally to play with you guys. i dont know why, she just didnt approve. I loved hanging out with you. no joke. I loved when you would give me your old shoes, my mom hated that to. But i would wear your shoes all the time, and thought i was the shit. In a weird way i looked up to you... i really did. You were younger than me and some how you had this personality and coolness that i absolutely admired. I loved the fact that we were friends. because honestly, if were went to school together, and never lived next to each other, I probably would have never gotten to know you. And thats a trip. Gosh you were such a boy. A street boy, for lack of a better word. You liked everything that any boy would like. Always riding bikes, skateboarding, being a bully, but a nice bully, makin fun of me. But it was all with love. er at least i hope so. haHaha. OMG its just not real that your gone. just so not real. I remember one time Me, You, and i think Ryan walked to like in n out from our house. just talking n being dumb kids. i remember telling you how the other night i made out with a boy who had just eaten a bbq sandwich from McDonalds and you NEVER ever let me live it down. im sure if i were to bring it up you would still make fun of me. Hahah. We would hang out by the pool, or in someones garage. Everyone was so innocent. We were so Innocent, i would do anything to hold on to that innocence longer. We both got older and you matured a lot better than any other boy your age. I would always remind you that you were so young, and you hated that. "dude lisa your only a couple years older dont think you better and know more than me" hah you little brat but your right. i never thought i was better than you, i always thought it was the other way around. I so had a crush on you, but you were just to young for me, i was alwz into the older guys. We would sit in your room n talk about anything. Sometimes it was about our lame "love lifes" or our animals, or anything. I never wanted to leave anytime we were hanging out. but of course my mom would always want me to come home. Jesus i was right fucking next door and she always wanted me to leave your house and come home. You pissed me off sometimes tho. not gunna lie. Nothing major but you would only call me if you needed something. if you needed to use my printer, or if you wanted me to burn you a CD, or if u needed hepl with something stupid. OR if you needed a ride somewhere. Obviously this was b4 you could drive. HAHa Stupidest thing i have ever done... Let Ryan drive us in my car. im pretty sure we almost crashed. i think he like ran a bunch of stop signs and was just driving stupid. We were stupid. I dont remember if i ever let you drive my car, but you always wanted to blast the music in the mazda. Going thru Del Taco, dropping you off at a friends house, or picking you up. Ah cody i loved you. still do. i miss you. You wornt just another kid that i knew from school. You wornt just any Kid. You were a part of my everyday life. I drive by your house every day. your Garage is always open. Im just to used to your Garage being open when i come home. If your garage is ever closed then i think something is wrong. Its just sad that we grew up. You started driving, and that was a tripp, You were so excited to get your truck! i remember when your Dad told me that he got you a truck, i thought it was stupid that you had that little cover over the Bed. I thought it looked dumb but you didnt give a fuck. You wanted it there so if you were out drunk somewhere you had a covered place to pass out. That truck was just totally you. With your red peace sticker on it.You were so excited to show me, and we just sat in your car n lisned to music. just Bumpin it. i think that you wouldnt let me drive your truck... even tho im pretty sure i begged you to let me drive it. That Truck is just so totally you. I cant even look at it when i drive by because it makes me wanna throw up. It makes me think that your home. In your room, on your new Mac u got for Xmas, or watching TV or playing video games. It makes me think that your still there, and you not. Your not here anymore. And for the dumbest reason ever. a Reason that you, being in heaven, probably even regret. Its fucking un real. You were so smart and athletic. I hated the fact that you turned into a little stoner. and some of your friends were cool, but i knew none of them were as smart as you, not at all. i hated you smoking because it was the start of what made your Brother the person he is now. (sorry RJ) but Cody i always told you that if you turned out to be like your brother i would kick your ass. I knew you were smarter than rj, You knew you were smarter than rj. But your fate just had to happen the way it did. Why? Why you? Why last night? Why so young? Why were you all drinking on a tuesday night?! and then why would you all drive like that?! everyone wants to know. My god its just so unreal. I want to hear you playing guitar again, i wanna hear your music from your truck when you pull home. All the fucking little things that were just normal to me, are gone. our lame ass ally way is just going to be quiet now! it fucking sucks. This whole thing fucking sucks. Thos whole town is in shambles. Everyone loved you. I couldnt even go to work without people talking about you. i fucking cried myself to sleep, and woke up crying and have been crying all day and crying right now and i dont want to cry any more. Seriously turn back time and make better decisions so no one has to cry any more So you mom, dad, brother, sister, Gma, your friends and peers, so everyone can stop crying. MY god if only everyone in the crash could have lived. oh my god.
i cant type any more
Cody i miss you
And i will see you again.
i look forward to seeing you again. and huging you.
take it ez bro. you have the easy life now.
seriously, Rest In Peace.
<3
The cutest little boy when u moved next door. I dont exactly remember how old you were, but you were fer sure still in elementary school i think. i know i was only about 2 years older than you but you were still so cute. You and your red hightop converse that i made fun of you for having. i thought they were clown shows, and to top it all off u rode around on a little pocket bike. I would just laugh n make circus noises. But as we both got older we both began to be friends. You were a little brat, especially when you were around your other friends, but I knew that wasnt really you. I knew who you were when you were on your own. We would cuddle, n get in wrestling fights. HA, that one year on thanks giving when we set my garage up to be this big wrestling ring. Way Funny. i know i have pictures somewhere, im gunna have to find those. My gosh my mom hated when we went out in the ally to play with you guys. i dont know why, she just didnt approve. I loved hanging out with you. no joke. I loved when you would give me your old shoes, my mom hated that to. But i would wear your shoes all the time, and thought i was the shit. In a weird way i looked up to you... i really did. You were younger than me and some how you had this personality and coolness that i absolutely admired. I loved the fact that we were friends. because honestly, if were went to school together, and never lived next to each other, I probably would have never gotten to know you. And thats a trip. Gosh you were such a boy. A street boy, for lack of a better word. You liked everything that any boy would like. Always riding bikes, skateboarding, being a bully, but a nice bully, makin fun of me. But it was all with love. er at least i hope so. haHaha. OMG its just not real that your gone. just so not real. I remember one time Me, You, and i think Ryan walked to like in n out from our house. just talking n being dumb kids. i remember telling you how the other night i made out with a boy who had just eaten a bbq sandwich from McDonalds and you NEVER ever let me live it down. im sure if i were to bring it up you would still make fun of me. Hahah. We would hang out by the pool, or in someones garage. Everyone was so innocent. We were so Innocent, i would do anything to hold on to that innocence longer. We both got older and you matured a lot better than any other boy your age. I would always remind you that you were so young, and you hated that. "dude lisa your only a couple years older dont think you better and know more than me" hah you little brat but your right. i never thought i was better than you, i always thought it was the other way around. I so had a crush on you, but you were just to young for me, i was alwz into the older guys. We would sit in your room n talk about anything. Sometimes it was about our lame "love lifes" or our animals, or anything. I never wanted to leave anytime we were hanging out. but of course my mom would always want me to come home. Jesus i was right fucking next door and she always wanted me to leave your house and come home. You pissed me off sometimes tho. not gunna lie. Nothing major but you would only call me if you needed something. if you needed to use my printer, or if you wanted me to burn you a CD, or if u needed hepl with something stupid. OR if you needed a ride somewhere. Obviously this was b4 you could drive. HAHa Stupidest thing i have ever done... Let Ryan drive us in my car. im pretty sure we almost crashed. i think he like ran a bunch of stop signs and was just driving stupid. We were stupid. I dont remember if i ever let you drive my car, but you always wanted to blast the music in the mazda. Going thru Del Taco, dropping you off at a friends house, or picking you up. Ah cody i loved you. still do. i miss you. You wornt just another kid that i knew from school. You wornt just any Kid. You were a part of my everyday life. I drive by your house every day. your Garage is always open. Im just to used to your Garage being open when i come home. If your garage is ever closed then i think something is wrong. Its just sad that we grew up. You started driving, and that was a tripp, You were so excited to get your truck! i remember when your Dad told me that he got you a truck, i thought it was stupid that you had that little cover over the Bed. I thought it looked dumb but you didnt give a fuck. You wanted it there so if you were out drunk somewhere you had a covered place to pass out. That truck was just totally you. With your red peace sticker on it.You were so excited to show me, and we just sat in your car n lisned to music. just Bumpin it. i think that you wouldnt let me drive your truck... even tho im pretty sure i begged you to let me drive it. That Truck is just so totally you. I cant even look at it when i drive by because it makes me wanna throw up. It makes me think that your home. In your room, on your new Mac u got for Xmas, or watching TV or playing video games. It makes me think that your still there, and you not. Your not here anymore. And for the dumbest reason ever. a Reason that you, being in heaven, probably even regret. Its fucking un real. You were so smart and athletic. I hated the fact that you turned into a little stoner. and some of your friends were cool, but i knew none of them were as smart as you, not at all. i hated you smoking because it was the start of what made your Brother the person he is now. (sorry RJ) but Cody i always told you that if you turned out to be like your brother i would kick your ass. I knew you were smarter than rj, You knew you were smarter than rj. But your fate just had to happen the way it did. Why? Why you? Why last night? Why so young? Why were you all drinking on a tuesday night?! and then why would you all drive like that?! everyone wants to know. My god its just so unreal. I want to hear you playing guitar again, i wanna hear your music from your truck when you pull home. All the fucking little things that were just normal to me, are gone. our lame ass ally way is just going to be quiet now! it fucking sucks. This whole thing fucking sucks. Thos whole town is in shambles. Everyone loved you. I couldnt even go to work without people talking about you. i fucking cried myself to sleep, and woke up crying and have been crying all day and crying right now and i dont want to cry any more. Seriously turn back time and make better decisions so no one has to cry any more So you mom, dad, brother, sister, Gma, your friends and peers, so everyone can stop crying. MY god if only everyone in the crash could have lived. oh my god.
i cant type any more
Cody i miss you
And i will see you again.
i look forward to seeing you again. and huging you.
take it ez bro. you have the easy life now.
seriously, Rest In Peace.
<3