Happy posts or no posts from now on
You know what, I've decided that I've had it with negative/whiny/dramatic LJ entries, not just mine, but everyone else's too. Reading other people's problems alwyas makes me feel so awful because 1) there's nothing I CAN do but read and 2) when I do truy to say something I always get the feeling that either it didn't help at all or that the person didn't even care or appreciate it. I know that's ridiculous to expect appreciation from people who are down, but well, I appreciate it when people care about me, so when they say nice things I respond to them. I guess I just expect people to be the same way, consideration, you know? Anyway, I'm tired of feeling bad for people. I know it sounds horrible, but the truth is, no matter how far away people are from me, no matter if I know them in person or just online, what happens to me them always gets to me, I feel sad for online friends who are going through bad stuff just as much as I care about real life friends who are going through the same stuff, there are days where I read stuff that makes me so sad I wanna cry. And I feel like I'm stupid, cause if I know that makes me so sad and depressed why do I keep reading such entries? I know this probably makes me sound like the weakest person, but it's not that, it's just that things really get to me, I don't know why, and it doesn't make me any good, ever.
I'm also done with my own negative/whiny/dramatic entries too. Why would I want people to know about my personal problems anyway? I mean, I tell people stuff, and what happens is either they talk to me saying things like "oh I'm sorry *hugs*" which doesn't do much, or they just don't say anything and I feel neglected. Which is pretty stupid, considering it's internet people I'm talking about, why should they care about my personal, and why should I care whether they care or not, it's just ridiculous. My problems are my problems, other people's problems are theirs, and Internet is not a therapy session. So enough with the negativity already.