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i hate that i cant talk to my mom about the drama thats going on in our family without breaking down and crying. my mom sat me down today and read to me the emails that her and my auntie beanie have been exchanging, and told me all about their phone calls they've had. i told my mom that i hate my auntie donna. and i hate my aunt kim. but when i start to say how i feel about my auntie beanie, i just break down. because she means the most to me. im not embaressed by the things that she said. im embaressed because i loved her so much. i wasnt gonna tell my mom that i hate my auntie beanie, just that i dont want to talk to her. it hurt me to see my mom cry as she read the emails to me. im still in shock that all this happened.
im really glad that i have nate. hes so amazing to me. and when stuff like this goes on within our family, i know that hes always gonna be there to listen to me, and let me just cry. i do love him. a whole lot. and i wouldnt be able to get through this stuff without him.
im starving. there was something else i wanted to say and now i cant remember. the adult alternative mix i made is in incredible, if i say so myself. i love it. and i made a copy for my mom, and my dad as well as nate.
im really glad that i have nate. hes so amazing to me. and when stuff like this goes on within our family, i know that hes always gonna be there to listen to me, and let me just cry. i do love him. a whole lot. and i wouldnt be able to get through this stuff without him.
im starving. there was something else i wanted to say and now i cant remember. the adult alternative mix i made is in incredible, if i say so myself. i love it. and i made a copy for my mom, and my dad as well as nate.