Whenever I say "I love you!" to my great-grandfather he always responds "Thank you!"
I always thought love was one of the few things I could really express adequately (although, another part of me could argue I was never able to express love adequately in the first place, which is how I got here...), but regardless, lately I seem to have reached a point where I am completely incapable (or at least now completely aware) of even attempting such a feat. It frustrates me. I am also completely incapable of expressing any other emotions properly lately as well (hmph!)
Angst, angst, angst! (Welcome back.)
Side note: I've gained, somewhere along the way, the ability to be separate from my ridiculous emotional wreck of a self, and actually be partially objective. However, it's not much help, because generally I just crack my self up to the point that I can no longer take myself seriously.
I am realizing I have alot of healing to do in my life. And though it pulls at my heart strings in ways I never even knew possible, it oddly comforts me knowing that I've gotten to a place where I can even realize this. I think the honest desire to be better is better than the honest desire to be right. Moreso, I think that shift is something that had to happen to me, because as much as I tried it was never something I could create of my own accord, without the basis being somewhat ill-intentioned or self-righteous.
I disappear in 2 months.
Weird.
Angst, angst, angst! (Welcome back.)
Side note: I've gained, somewhere along the way, the ability to be separate from my ridiculous emotional wreck of a self, and actually be partially objective. However, it's not much help, because generally I just crack my self up to the point that I can no longer take myself seriously.
I am realizing I have alot of healing to do in my life. And though it pulls at my heart strings in ways I never even knew possible, it oddly comforts me knowing that I've gotten to a place where I can even realize this. I think the honest desire to be better is better than the honest desire to be right. Moreso, I think that shift is something that had to happen to me, because as much as I tried it was never something I could create of my own accord, without the basis being somewhat ill-intentioned or self-righteous.
I disappear in 2 months.
Weird.