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Wow.
What a month, what a month, what a month...
Well. I'll start off with good news, right now I'm at "Flaco's" which is an awesome corner coffee shop that sells awesome pastries and coffee, although, I am drinking a jupina. =D
My this week was MUCH better than my last week.. OH buddy, it sure has been!
Denvil and I broke up and last week was like some very blurry trance. Nothing made sense and everything felt so empty. EVERYTHING. I think aside from when my sister past away I had never felt that terrible. -seriously- I felt like every day I had just gotten my ass whopped. I couldn't get up in the morning sometimes. I was crying at random and just... ug... not fun.
This week has been a much kinder to me. The cure: healing (a lot of alone time + time + good friends + family). My room mates Carson and Ben have been a godsend. Seriously. They have been so supportive. I'll never forget them. I should post pics of them! As soon as I develop my next roll of film. *reminder* My brother moises, my sister estrella, will and just everyone close has helped. lol. I've needed all of it. Seriously. I've had people pray for the decision and I've prayed a lot and had a lot of down time to think it over. I'm still in love with him. With all my heart.=)
But for right now, in our lives it's really best. It took all the strength I had to say good-bye. I feel stronger. I don't have the strength to stand up all the way yet, but at least my chin is up. strides..
Life is moving and I feel more apart of the changes. Pulling my weight and only mine this time around. I'm going to keep it this way for awhile. My love life has been kinda messy in the past. I'm going to just be by myself for a really long time. lol. It's easier for where I am in my life right now.
Let the healing... BEGIN!
I feel so safe in the hands of change and time. seriously... I have a lot of sadness, but I feel a certain unexplainable comfort, like I'll be okay.
pretty crazy.
*cheers*
What a month, what a month, what a month...
Well. I'll start off with good news, right now I'm at "Flaco's" which is an awesome corner coffee shop that sells awesome pastries and coffee, although, I am drinking a jupina. =D
My this week was MUCH better than my last week.. OH buddy, it sure has been!
Denvil and I broke up and last week was like some very blurry trance. Nothing made sense and everything felt so empty. EVERYTHING. I think aside from when my sister past away I had never felt that terrible. -seriously- I felt like every day I had just gotten my ass whopped. I couldn't get up in the morning sometimes. I was crying at random and just... ug... not fun.
This week has been a much kinder to me. The cure: healing (a lot of alone time + time + good friends + family). My room mates Carson and Ben have been a godsend. Seriously. They have been so supportive. I'll never forget them. I should post pics of them! As soon as I develop my next roll of film. *reminder* My brother moises, my sister estrella, will and just everyone close has helped. lol. I've needed all of it. Seriously. I've had people pray for the decision and I've prayed a lot and had a lot of down time to think it over. I'm still in love with him. With all my heart.=)
But for right now, in our lives it's really best. It took all the strength I had to say good-bye. I feel stronger. I don't have the strength to stand up all the way yet, but at least my chin is up. strides..
Life is moving and I feel more apart of the changes. Pulling my weight and only mine this time around. I'm going to keep it this way for awhile. My love life has been kinda messy in the past. I'm going to just be by myself for a really long time. lol. It's easier for where I am in my life right now.
Let the healing... BEGIN!
I feel so safe in the hands of change and time. seriously... I have a lot of sadness, but I feel a certain unexplainable comfort, like I'll be okay.
pretty crazy.
*cheers*