"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate... but that we are powerful beyond imagination..."
What a busy day.. it's 7am. Today is Denvil's first @ the office. I think I'm allowed to say at this point seeings how none of you really talk to him and he did tell me it's okay if my brother knows. He is officially now in training for Miami-Dade Police Department. He starts at the actual academy in Sept., but they wanted him to start working for them earlier so they have in the police office taking care of there paper work.. crazy, huh?
Intensely crazy.
This whole weekend I was at odds with myself on how to feel about it all. Yesterday I just surrendered and decided to be supportive.lol. Glad that I did. I bought him some Congratulation balloons and had the ribbon lined down in police badges.
I was having some difficulty dealing with all that being a police officer brings. Being first in the line of fire, the first 8-9 months of intense schooling, and to some extent the fact that he's already starting his career.
It was difficult for me to concieve someone knowing and already acting out what their going to be doing for the rest of their lives when I'm at the bare bottom of trying to understand and configure what it is I'm going to do. I'm used to being the one in a relationship that's level headed and goal oriented and he has me so beat.lol. Once I got over those things I was set. I cried a lot though :( He told me within a week of exceptance, since than it's always just bee a surprise project in the making that he would speak of in passing,but it came together in the last week so it was a lot at once. I'm proud of myself for dealing with it, I'm proud of him for all his accomplishments and not to mention the WAY he dealt with my craziness, he was just spot on.
I feel like I took major steps this weekend.
Getting older I've had a lot of growing pains. A lot of struggle with my own hang-ups, thank-you mami and papi. lol
I think i've shed a little skin. I dunno.lol. I feel like something has changed inside of me for the better and I'm just so humbily grateful. He's shown me that given dedication I can really be the things I have in mind, and to believe that is very important simply because i have pretty big dreams...teehee...
Here's to big dreams...
*cheers*
lol. Denvil is totally my hero. Here's to You!! *muah!* (if you're reading)
I'm going to start my day, lots to do.
Shalom to you all.
*bows*
Intensely crazy.
This whole weekend I was at odds with myself on how to feel about it all. Yesterday I just surrendered and decided to be supportive.lol. Glad that I did. I bought him some Congratulation balloons and had the ribbon lined down in police badges.
I was having some difficulty dealing with all that being a police officer brings. Being first in the line of fire, the first 8-9 months of intense schooling, and to some extent the fact that he's already starting his career.
It was difficult for me to concieve someone knowing and already acting out what their going to be doing for the rest of their lives when I'm at the bare bottom of trying to understand and configure what it is I'm going to do. I'm used to being the one in a relationship that's level headed and goal oriented and he has me so beat.lol. Once I got over those things I was set. I cried a lot though :( He told me within a week of exceptance, since than it's always just bee a surprise project in the making that he would speak of in passing,but it came together in the last week so it was a lot at once. I'm proud of myself for dealing with it, I'm proud of him for all his accomplishments and not to mention the WAY he dealt with my craziness, he was just spot on.
I feel like I took major steps this weekend.
Getting older I've had a lot of growing pains. A lot of struggle with my own hang-ups, thank-you mami and papi. lol
I think i've shed a little skin. I dunno.lol. I feel like something has changed inside of me for the better and I'm just so humbily grateful. He's shown me that given dedication I can really be the things I have in mind, and to believe that is very important simply because i have pretty big dreams...teehee...
Here's to big dreams...
*cheers*
lol. Denvil is totally my hero. Here's to You!! *muah!* (if you're reading)
I'm going to start my day, lots to do.
Shalom to you all.
*bows*