ah, the irony.
I did a courageous thing yesterday.. told Daniel I no longer wanted to be friends. Yes, I was the one who initiated it this time. Lying on my bed, thinking about how horrible the situation was, I messaged him. Somewhere along the lines of:
"This doesn't seem like a real friendship, it's fucked up. We should either fix it or not even bother trying to be friends. And we've tried sorting things out but it didn't work. And we can only see eachother once a week? It's pathetic. I hate the situation, it's emotionally draining. And no I'm not trying to get into your pants. I feel like you use me, like you care when you want to, but other times you don't give a shit. You don't even care that it's December 8th. You know the fact you have a gf hurts me. You act like you care about me, but you continue to do things that you know hurt me. So yes, from now on we aren't friends. Bye."
He replied during it. Pathetic replies. I knew he was spending the day with his girlfriend. "I am with Sheena now, so we can only be friends. Do you want to end that? If you think it's best then I agree, coz I'm sick of explaining my actions to you." He put on this stupid facade through his SMS's.. I knew she was reading my every word. Hah. I bet she's pissed off. She probably thinks I'm the biggest bitch.. the EX after her boyfriend. I saw Rachel in the city today, and thought I'd talk to her. She told me Sheena's been really jealous of me, the fact that Daniel spends time with me, and paranoid that he was still sleeping with me. Well.. she was right, but *ssshhhhhh*. Anyways, no wonder she told him he can only see me once a week. I don't care about either of them. Even Rachel thinks it's pathetic that Daniel's with a 16 year old, and that he ditched me for her is even more pathetic. That's what Daniel's girlfriend needs to understand.. when Daniel ditchs me for her, and then tries to be friend's with me straight after, of course it's going to be fucking hard. 1. Because there are obviously still feelings, and 2. He obviously hurt my feelings, and I can't forgive him just like that. But she's pretty immature, even for a 16 year old {no wonder he's with her!). What the fuck would she know?
"This doesn't seem like a real friendship, it's fucked up. We should either fix it or not even bother trying to be friends. And we've tried sorting things out but it didn't work. And we can only see eachother once a week? It's pathetic. I hate the situation, it's emotionally draining. And no I'm not trying to get into your pants. I feel like you use me, like you care when you want to, but other times you don't give a shit. You don't even care that it's December 8th. You know the fact you have a gf hurts me. You act like you care about me, but you continue to do things that you know hurt me. So yes, from now on we aren't friends. Bye."
He replied during it. Pathetic replies. I knew he was spending the day with his girlfriend. "I am with Sheena now, so we can only be friends. Do you want to end that? If you think it's best then I agree, coz I'm sick of explaining my actions to you." He put on this stupid facade through his SMS's.. I knew she was reading my every word. Hah. I bet she's pissed off. She probably thinks I'm the biggest bitch.. the EX after her boyfriend. I saw Rachel in the city today, and thought I'd talk to her. She told me Sheena's been really jealous of me, the fact that Daniel spends time with me, and paranoid that he was still sleeping with me. Well.. she was right, but *ssshhhhhh*. Anyways, no wonder she told him he can only see me once a week. I don't care about either of them. Even Rachel thinks it's pathetic that Daniel's with a 16 year old, and that he ditched me for her is even more pathetic. That's what Daniel's girlfriend needs to understand.. when Daniel ditchs me for her, and then tries to be friend's with me straight after, of course it's going to be fucking hard. 1. Because there are obviously still feelings, and 2. He obviously hurt my feelings, and I can't forgive him just like that. But she's pretty immature, even for a 16 year old {no wonder he's with her!). What the fuck would she know?