Party at Sarah's
This is a conversation between me and Diana about the "get-together" at Sarah's.
I started it out with me and Maria on a couch.
LatinChicKa729 [3:26 AM]: ok john, i havent gotten a thing you just said since like..."we were sitting on the coach"
Omeganima [3:26 AM]: omg
Omeganima [3:26 AM]: lol
LatinChicKa729 [3:26 AM]: my computer shut off
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: then next thing i know we're sitting on the coach
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and im like gimme some food
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and she says you dont want any food
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and im like yes i do
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and this whole time we are leaning in
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and she kisses me and she wants to keep going
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: and i say "we cant do this"
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: four words i regret saying.
LatinChicKa729 [3:28 AM]: she kissed you?!
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: i didnt have the heart to take advantage.
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: YES
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: And i fucking knew she loved me at that moment
LatinChicKa729 [3:28 AM]: why? dont regret saying that, its fucking true
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: i just
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: wanted to kiss her so bad
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: i wanted to keep going
LatinChicKa729 [3:28 AM]: she kissed you like...how though?
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: semi open mouth i think
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: i was wasted remember
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: oh, lol
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: but she did kiss me
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: thats true
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: wow
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: and then you started crying?!
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: wait till you hear this
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: NO
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: lol
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: listen
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: so i gave her something instead
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: something i had wrote about her but had not intended to give her
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: keep in mind, i was high and drunk and cocky
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: i gave it to her, and then she read it and said "you cant keep doing this Johnny" and ran away crying
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: i felt it was extremely stupid of me to do that
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: and then she broke_up_with_adrian
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: i was like WHAT THE FUCK
LatinChicKa729 [3:30 AM]: havent you done stuff like that before?
LatinChicKa729 [3:30 AM]: WHAT?!
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: DO I GET MY HOPES UP? DO I NOT?
LatinChicKa729 [3:30 AM]: so idnt that like...GOOD?
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: I really had no clue on what to do. It was just all out there.
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: so robert and me walked out of there real quick to talk
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: and THEN i started crying
LatinChicKa729 [3:31 AM]: you shouldve grabbed her and kissed her dammit!
LatinChicKa729 [3:31 AM]: like, after she broke up w/ adrian
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: but she was drunk i think!
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: and then she went fucking back out with him like an hour later!
LatinChicKa729 [3:31 AM]: arg.
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: i was so angry.
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: so when i went home
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: i was drunk as hell
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: and i waited till it was 12
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: at night, that is
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: and i left a message
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: dont remember what the hell i said
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: but i was drunk so it came from the heart
LatinChicKa729 [3:32 AM]: woudlnt her kissing you and breaking up w/ adrian also have come from the heart?
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: it did
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: thats what i hate
LatinChicKa729 [3:33 AM]: then why did she go back out with him?!
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: alcohol brings out what we want. what we need
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: she's still attached
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: i dont know what to do
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: i just want her to fucking react
Omeganima [3:34 AM]: so that's why i left that message
LatinChicKa729 [3:34 AM]: talk to her one last time john, ONE LAST FUCKING TIME, about this shit
LatinChicKa729 [3:34 AM]: dont become attatched and completely heartbroken if she doesnt wanna see the truth
Omeganima [3:34 AM]: its really hard D.
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: she will eventually, but your life cant revolve around her and her stupid decisions
Omeganima [3:35 AM]: not her fault she's attached
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: it is her fault she wont do anything about it
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: its not out of her hands john
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: she obviously broke up w/ him, which means she COULD do something
Omeganima [3:35 AM]: thats true...its actually IN her hands ironically
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: all i know is that when she kissed me
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: i
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: felt something
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: like its going to sound corny and stupid
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: but i just felt like, this is right. this is perfect. and i looked in her eyes and
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: i dont know it was like...she wanted it too. it was like she loved me.
Omeganima [3:38 AM]: maybe i was just full of shit. i dont think so though.
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: i dont know john
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: what i DO know is youre tearing yourself apart
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: talk to her one more time and then LET GO
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: youre more fucking important than she is, dont let her destroy you
Omeganima [3:40 AM]: im not
LatinChicKa729 [3:40 AM]: not...more important?
LatinChicKa729 [3:40 AM]: you should be to yourself, if she refuses to see thge truth let her do so, its her huge mistake
LatinChicKa729 [3:41 AM]: and maybe she'll come to realize it, maybe she wont, but you cant force it upon her
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: two years
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: you know
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: i also made out with this girl michelle
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: just to see if it'd be the same
LatinChicKa729 [3:42 AM]: lol, i take it it wasnt
Omeganima [3:42 AM]: lol
Omeganima [3:42 AM]: not even close
Omeganima [3:42 AM]: in fact, i really didnt like it at all
Omeganima [3:43 AM]: i didnt even want to, i just needed to get my mind off of maria
LatinChicKa729 [3:43 AM]: i take it it didnt work
Omeganima [3:43 AM]: no it didnt
Why am I the one to never get what he wants.
What he NEEDS.
It was so close.
I was so close.
Why is it everytime I get so near to getting over her
She does something to bring me back.
Why is getting over her like being a zombie.
Dying and raising from the grave and dying again over and over.
Why are your words different from your actions. From what your EYES tell me.
You do love me. Don't you.
Check your answering machine and hear the babble of a drunken hopeless romantic.
And know the words I spewed out were purely from my heart.
I started it out with me and Maria on a couch.
LatinChicKa729 [3:26 AM]: ok john, i havent gotten a thing you just said since like..."we were sitting on the coach"
Omeganima [3:26 AM]: omg
Omeganima [3:26 AM]: lol
LatinChicKa729 [3:26 AM]: my computer shut off
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: then next thing i know we're sitting on the coach
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and im like gimme some food
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and she says you dont want any food
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and im like yes i do
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and this whole time we are leaning in
Omeganima [3:27 AM]: and she kisses me and she wants to keep going
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: and i say "we cant do this"
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: four words i regret saying.
LatinChicKa729 [3:28 AM]: she kissed you?!
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: i didnt have the heart to take advantage.
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: YES
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: And i fucking knew she loved me at that moment
LatinChicKa729 [3:28 AM]: why? dont regret saying that, its fucking true
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: i just
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: wanted to kiss her so bad
Omeganima [3:28 AM]: i wanted to keep going
LatinChicKa729 [3:28 AM]: she kissed you like...how though?
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: semi open mouth i think
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: i was wasted remember
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: oh, lol
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: but she did kiss me
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: thats true
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: wow
LatinChicKa729 [3:29 AM]: and then you started crying?!
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: wait till you hear this
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: NO
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: lol
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: listen
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: so i gave her something instead
Omeganima [3:29 AM]: something i had wrote about her but had not intended to give her
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: keep in mind, i was high and drunk and cocky
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: i gave it to her, and then she read it and said "you cant keep doing this Johnny" and ran away crying
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: i felt it was extremely stupid of me to do that
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: and then she broke_up_with_adrian
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: i was like WHAT THE FUCK
LatinChicKa729 [3:30 AM]: havent you done stuff like that before?
LatinChicKa729 [3:30 AM]: WHAT?!
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: DO I GET MY HOPES UP? DO I NOT?
LatinChicKa729 [3:30 AM]: so idnt that like...GOOD?
Omeganima [3:30 AM]: I really had no clue on what to do. It was just all out there.
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: so robert and me walked out of there real quick to talk
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: and THEN i started crying
LatinChicKa729 [3:31 AM]: you shouldve grabbed her and kissed her dammit!
LatinChicKa729 [3:31 AM]: like, after she broke up w/ adrian
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: but she was drunk i think!
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: and then she went fucking back out with him like an hour later!
LatinChicKa729 [3:31 AM]: arg.
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: i was so angry.
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: so when i went home
Omeganima [3:31 AM]: i was drunk as hell
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: and i waited till it was 12
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: at night, that is
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: and i left a message
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: dont remember what the hell i said
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: but i was drunk so it came from the heart
LatinChicKa729 [3:32 AM]: woudlnt her kissing you and breaking up w/ adrian also have come from the heart?
Omeganima [3:32 AM]: it did
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: thats what i hate
LatinChicKa729 [3:33 AM]: then why did she go back out with him?!
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: alcohol brings out what we want. what we need
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: she's still attached
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: i dont know what to do
Omeganima [3:33 AM]: i just want her to fucking react
Omeganima [3:34 AM]: so that's why i left that message
LatinChicKa729 [3:34 AM]: talk to her one last time john, ONE LAST FUCKING TIME, about this shit
LatinChicKa729 [3:34 AM]: dont become attatched and completely heartbroken if she doesnt wanna see the truth
Omeganima [3:34 AM]: its really hard D.
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: she will eventually, but your life cant revolve around her and her stupid decisions
Omeganima [3:35 AM]: not her fault she's attached
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: it is her fault she wont do anything about it
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: its not out of her hands john
LatinChicKa729 [3:35 AM]: she obviously broke up w/ him, which means she COULD do something
Omeganima [3:35 AM]: thats true...its actually IN her hands ironically
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: all i know is that when she kissed me
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: i
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: felt something
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: like its going to sound corny and stupid
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: but i just felt like, this is right. this is perfect. and i looked in her eyes and
Omeganima [3:36 AM]: i dont know it was like...she wanted it too. it was like she loved me.
Omeganima [3:38 AM]: maybe i was just full of shit. i dont think so though.
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: i dont know john
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: what i DO know is youre tearing yourself apart
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: talk to her one more time and then LET GO
LatinChicKa729 [3:39 AM]: youre more fucking important than she is, dont let her destroy you
Omeganima [3:40 AM]: im not
LatinChicKa729 [3:40 AM]: not...more important?
LatinChicKa729 [3:40 AM]: you should be to yourself, if she refuses to see thge truth let her do so, its her huge mistake
LatinChicKa729 [3:41 AM]: and maybe she'll come to realize it, maybe she wont, but you cant force it upon her
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: two years
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: you know
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: i also made out with this girl michelle
Omeganima [3:41 AM]: just to see if it'd be the same
LatinChicKa729 [3:42 AM]: lol, i take it it wasnt
Omeganima [3:42 AM]: lol
Omeganima [3:42 AM]: not even close
Omeganima [3:42 AM]: in fact, i really didnt like it at all
Omeganima [3:43 AM]: i didnt even want to, i just needed to get my mind off of maria
LatinChicKa729 [3:43 AM]: i take it it didnt work
Omeganima [3:43 AM]: no it didnt
Why am I the one to never get what he wants.
What he NEEDS.
It was so close.
I was so close.
Why is it everytime I get so near to getting over her
She does something to bring me back.
Why is getting over her like being a zombie.
Dying and raising from the grave and dying again over and over.
Why are your words different from your actions. From what your EYES tell me.
You do love me. Don't you.
Check your answering machine and hear the babble of a drunken hopeless romantic.
And know the words I spewed out were purely from my heart.