I miss that way you make me smile
I'm missing some of my friends presently. Which is somewhat funny given they are all in Perth, but for different reasons, I am missing their physicality more than anything.
One of those I am missing right now is my best friend. I am missing her a hell of a lot. There's a certain connection you get when you've been friends for so long where you can kind of just be in existence around each other and the world is by far a better place. I miss that sense of her making me feel that way. I miss the grounding she provides me. I miss her smile. I miss her hugs. I miss her as a person. Now I know I've been busy, hugely so in a lot of cases as I am frantically trying to juggle being on two committees, SES events and training, uni, floristry and full time work with spending time with my husband. And I know she has been hugely unwell, and hugely stressed. But the friendship is the type of friendship which surpasses all of that... and the reality of it is I am beginning to fret and physically feel like I am suffering withdrawal symptoms. I'm feeling as though I need to see her to make my world right again, I need that touch and grounding from her to make me able to carry on. She's too unwell for sustained contact, which is not her fault at all. None of this is anyone's fault, I'm merely stating how much I miss her and what kind of effect she has on me. She's my best friend, I love her, I miss her.
The second person I am missing for entirely different reasons. Something has changed, I feel as though I am no longer close to them and I feel as though they are trying to gently disengage. I'm feeling barriers coming into play, and am feeling somewhat slighgtly walled out. I wish I had that same ease with them that I once did, I miss their friendship. I miss the honesty they once gave me. I feel as though we are only going through the motions, that whilst we go through the actions of being friends, the actual heart of what makes the friendship isn't there.
The third person I miss just because they are a wonderful person and it's been a while since I have seen them. Hopefully this will be corrected tonight, all going well, but I adore them and the ease with which I can be myself around them. She'll never believe how gorgeous she is, but soemday I hope she realises how much better she makes my world just by being a part of it. Adorable, bright and oh so very talented. Miss P, I really hope I see you tonight :)
Everyone else, I love and miss you all as well, but I've probably seen you a lot more recently and filled my levels of need up when I saw you :) But I do adore you all! :)
One of those I am missing right now is my best friend. I am missing her a hell of a lot. There's a certain connection you get when you've been friends for so long where you can kind of just be in existence around each other and the world is by far a better place. I miss that sense of her making me feel that way. I miss the grounding she provides me. I miss her smile. I miss her hugs. I miss her as a person. Now I know I've been busy, hugely so in a lot of cases as I am frantically trying to juggle being on two committees, SES events and training, uni, floristry and full time work with spending time with my husband. And I know she has been hugely unwell, and hugely stressed. But the friendship is the type of friendship which surpasses all of that... and the reality of it is I am beginning to fret and physically feel like I am suffering withdrawal symptoms. I'm feeling as though I need to see her to make my world right again, I need that touch and grounding from her to make me able to carry on. She's too unwell for sustained contact, which is not her fault at all. None of this is anyone's fault, I'm merely stating how much I miss her and what kind of effect she has on me. She's my best friend, I love her, I miss her.
The second person I am missing for entirely different reasons. Something has changed, I feel as though I am no longer close to them and I feel as though they are trying to gently disengage. I'm feeling barriers coming into play, and am feeling somewhat slighgtly walled out. I wish I had that same ease with them that I once did, I miss their friendship. I miss the honesty they once gave me. I feel as though we are only going through the motions, that whilst we go through the actions of being friends, the actual heart of what makes the friendship isn't there.
The third person I miss just because they are a wonderful person and it's been a while since I have seen them. Hopefully this will be corrected tonight, all going well, but I adore them and the ease with which I can be myself around them. She'll never believe how gorgeous she is, but soemday I hope she realises how much better she makes my world just by being a part of it. Adorable, bright and oh so very talented. Miss P, I really hope I see you tonight :)
Everyone else, I love and miss you all as well, but I've probably seen you a lot more recently and filled my levels of need up when I saw you :) But I do adore you all! :)