It's Holland's Third Birthday Today!
I can't believe that she is three. It has FLOWN by. Holland is so funny and full of personality. We had the girls' dance dress rehearsal last night and Holland was so upset that she only got to perform once. She was the only little person who actually knows her dance without needing to watch the "helper" on stage. Such a performer! She is so full of sass and so smart. We were talking about how God is always with you in your heart even though you can't see him and she said to me, "God is just like Marley [my mom's dog that she just had put down at age 13], always in my heart." I don't even know how she came up with that! We've talked about how Marley has gone to dog heaven, but you know how it is with 2 1/2 year olds, are they even listening??!!?? We got her a big girl bike, but it's going to take some practice to pedal it. We've planned Farrell's for dinner tonight and we are having a small swim party at our house tomorrow afternoon with a Frozen theme. My mom even got her the elusive Elsa dress. And yes, she got one for Logan, too. There would be way too much drama if they both didn't have one.
I had my ultrasound this morning and there was a heartbeat. And guess what?? A SECOND sac appeared! But it didn't show up at all last week and it looks to be empty or with a very small yolk sac this week, so my RE said it's most likely not viable. I agree and honestly hope he is right. We are not at all prepared for twins or four kids. However, it does explain why my HCG was even higher than it was with both girls and why I've been having so many symptoms so early-totally bloated, huge boobs already (up a cup size at 6 weeks-ugh), nausea, etc. I still can't believe I am pregnant. I know this sounds crazy but I keep waiting for something to go wrong. It just seemed too easy this time. Yes, we've been trying for over 18 months and yes, it took IVF with a frozen transfer to get here, but there was so much stress and drama involved with the first two that I can't believe I actually made it here without it. Part of it has to be because I was more ambivalent about it-I tried to stay really removed emotionally from the process because I knew the odds weren't in my favor. Now, if I can just have a healthy normal, singleton baby, I will be thrilled!
I had my ultrasound this morning and there was a heartbeat. And guess what?? A SECOND sac appeared! But it didn't show up at all last week and it looks to be empty or with a very small yolk sac this week, so my RE said it's most likely not viable. I agree and honestly hope he is right. We are not at all prepared for twins or four kids. However, it does explain why my HCG was even higher than it was with both girls and why I've been having so many symptoms so early-totally bloated, huge boobs already (up a cup size at 6 weeks-ugh), nausea, etc. I still can't believe I am pregnant. I know this sounds crazy but I keep waiting for something to go wrong. It just seemed too easy this time. Yes, we've been trying for over 18 months and yes, it took IVF with a frozen transfer to get here, but there was so much stress and drama involved with the first two that I can't believe I actually made it here without it. Part of it has to be because I was more ambivalent about it-I tried to stay really removed emotionally from the process because I knew the odds weren't in my favor. Now, if I can just have a healthy normal, singleton baby, I will be thrilled!