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Damnit, I cared too much again.
oops.
I try to be the chill girl, the calm girl, the go-with-the flow, whatever happens happens girl. But maybe I need to accept the fact that the cool, calm, collected girl is not just not part of my personality. It never has been. I don't want to be all nutso analytical but thats just what happens..and even when I try not to be, I am anyway.
I don't know if I'm analytical because I am insecure or I am analytical because that is how my mom raised me, because she is too.
All I know is that I am, and sometimes it makes life so goddamn hard because I realize things..bad things, usually..more quickly because I have analyzed them.
Ok now I sound nuts.
oops.
I try to be the chill girl, the calm girl, the go-with-the flow, whatever happens happens girl. But maybe I need to accept the fact that the cool, calm, collected girl is not just not part of my personality. It never has been. I don't want to be all nutso analytical but thats just what happens..and even when I try not to be, I am anyway.
I don't know if I'm analytical because I am insecure or I am analytical because that is how my mom raised me, because she is too.
All I know is that I am, and sometimes it makes life so goddamn hard because I realize things..bad things, usually..more quickly because I have analyzed them.
Ok now I sound nuts.