hello..
hello all..
I've not wrote in a while..
I have mostly been around..
I have been feeling rather strange lately..
I am always home be myself..
Which i am not complaining about.
Tell ya the truth i'd rather be home alone.
Then i don't have to talk to anyone.
Pretty bad huh?
I guess i am so used to just never talking abuot anything except basic things.
I have been thinking that you know where your at the point where its like
what the hell..like i know i have sure a good life on the outside and on
the inside its tearing me up inside..?
And most of me don't want to admit that anything is wrong and i am all happy..
I do not want to cuz any greif.
When that hurt comes back i just seem to shut down inside..
Blocking all that and being happy.
I have such a good life i should not be dieing inside.
And I do want anyhelp Which i do know that that is the only way i am going to get feeling okay.
I don't know..
I won't let it come back..
I will not start hurting myself again..
I am strong and it won't break me again.
Maybe ill take some stuff to ease the feeling..
not sure what..
i guess ill see what my mom got.
dunno..maybe i won't..ehh..
i guess ill stop wasting you time.
Much luv
I've not wrote in a while..
I have mostly been around..
I have been feeling rather strange lately..
I am always home be myself..
Which i am not complaining about.
Tell ya the truth i'd rather be home alone.
Then i don't have to talk to anyone.
Pretty bad huh?
I guess i am so used to just never talking abuot anything except basic things.
I have been thinking that you know where your at the point where its like
what the hell..like i know i have sure a good life on the outside and on
the inside its tearing me up inside..?
And most of me don't want to admit that anything is wrong and i am all happy..
I do not want to cuz any greif.
When that hurt comes back i just seem to shut down inside..
Blocking all that and being happy.
I have such a good life i should not be dieing inside.
And I do want anyhelp Which i do know that that is the only way i am going to get feeling okay.
I don't know..
I won't let it come back..
I will not start hurting myself again..
I am strong and it won't break me again.
Maybe ill take some stuff to ease the feeling..
not sure what..
i guess ill see what my mom got.
dunno..maybe i won't..ehh..
i guess ill stop wasting you time.
Much luv