I took off my necklace. For a while I've had the ring on a chain with a music charm. It used to be sort of a comfort to me, a remnant of the connection I once had, but now it's gotten to the point where I don't want to look at it anymore. Why do I need a physical reminder of something that upsets me? It gets in the way during swimming, and I'm ( Read more... )

I have honestly never felt so furious in my entire life ( Read more... )

 I've never felt this much longing before ( Read more... )

 Cups of tea consumed: Not much, surprisingly ( Read more... )

 Today felt like it was impossibly long. It's already Wednesday, and it feels like a bloody eternity has passed me by. There's a party of nervous butterflies living it up in my stomach, wonder if there's any way I can get them evicted? Am missing Jacob terribly, oh so terribly. I should be studying for Friday's chem exam, but I can't bring myself ( Read more... )

 I'm driving over to Ellensburg on Friday for our tete-a-tete, probably after my chem test. I'm not quite sure when on Friday because he hasn't responded to me inquiring as to what time would work best for him, but what the hell.

I've never been so scared for something in my life. It already feels like time is passing by incredibly slow. It's only ( Read more... )

Woke up. Put on my face, rolled out of bed, and resolved on tackling the day - no, the week. The next two weeks ( Read more... )

BREAKING NEWS: I HAVE JUST BROKEN JACOB FROM THE ODD HABIT OF REFERRING TO 'SODA' AS 'POP'. NOW, NONE OF THIS SODA VS POP WAR, JUST WANTED TO POINT THIS OUT CUZ IT'S FUNNY. OKAY? FUNNY.

At least it is to me. :/

ALSO, my goldfish died today. Okay, so he wasn't really my goldfish, but like, the fifth replacement after the fact. Anyway, the poor little ( Read more... )