Death is such a tricky subject - something that by definition has almost a beauty to it, the thought of having "my time" here, and then leaving, and also since it is the fact that we die that makes life so urgently worth living. It's also a little funny because everybody does relate to it in some way - everyone understands what it means. There doesn't seem to be much you can do to comfort someone who's lost a loved one, except make sure they know they are cared about and be there for them.
I've always had a struggle with severe anxiety over death, probably most of all because it's a concept that our human mind is simply utterly incapable of grasping - also because most of my anxiety is anticipatory (i.e. fear of "what might/could/will happen"). I feel it's gotten a little more under control in recent years, but it's still an issue. It's one of the reasons I can't deal with violence in movies well at all - any thoughts of pain or death seep into me and stay there.
Your anxieties seem similar to my own in regards to your father. As for your intrusive and frequent thoughts of death, it's only natural since it's something going on in your life, and it might linger a bit. If it goes on for what you feel is quite a long time, and starts to dip into other aspects of your life, that's more like depression, but for now you're probably more on the psychologically okay side.
I've always had a struggle with severe anxiety over death, probably most of all because it's a concept that our human mind is simply utterly incapable of grasping - also because most of my anxiety is anticipatory (i.e. fear of "what might/could/will happen"). I feel it's gotten a little more under control in recent years, but it's still an issue. It's one of the reasons I can't deal with violence in movies well at all - any thoughts of pain or death seep into me and stay there.
Your anxieties seem similar to my own in regards to your father. As for your intrusive and frequent thoughts of death, it's only natural since it's something going on in your life, and it might linger a bit. If it goes on for what you feel is quite a long time, and starts to dip into other aspects of your life, that's more like depression, but for now you're probably more on the psychologically okay side.
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