Mar 02, 2012 13:36
Title: When you see me, I'm already gone
Pairing: Jongkey , Minkey(slightly)
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 2,388
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters.
Summary: Autumn brings with it fading colors and lost memories. Jonghyun eyes on an ordinary day an odd boy at a windowsill. He becomes obsessed with him, passing by every day just to stare at the stranger. But the said one never left his gaze from the books he was always holding.
His eyes told a story, he looked fragile, broken, lost, and Jonghyun wanted to find out more about this guy.
A/N : Finally finished it, I feel kind of bad for ending it though.
Kibum kept whining and yelling until they got to an agglomerated Mc-Donald’s, finally touching the ground.
“ What are we doing here?”
“ You said you wanted a coke” Jonghyun retorted.
“ Don’t you know to recognize an rhetorical tone when you hear it?” Kibum replayed mockingly.
“Still, I brought you here so let’s get a drink and something to eat.”
“ Oh, sure, why not watch a movie too” he rolled his eyes.
“ If that’s what you want’ Jonghyun smiled grabbing Kibum’s wrist.
“ Do you think I’m an easy guy, going with a stranger, a burglar that breaks into my room? Do you think I’m nuts?!”
“ No... You’re just different”
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italic"> Kibum lowered his head, as Jonghyun went to buy. Different… he was right, he has always been different, not managing to fit in anywhere. He was tossed away by society since he decided not to play by it’s rules, and now here he was, with this guy sent from school, claiming he was his classmate. So they haven’t forgotten about him, huh? But it wasn’t the same for Minho, he didn’t seemed he forgot, and now what did he do? He had the courage to come to him, blaming everything on him? Was he so narrow minded, did he forgot that it was all his fault... it was his fault that Kibum got in this state.
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italic"> “Why are you standing there? Come on...” Jonghyun snapped him out of his reverie, pulling him to a nearby table.
italic">“ So what where you musing about?”
italic">“Nothing of your concern”
italic">“ Oh, come on, we’re classmates remember, why can’ you trust me?”
italic">“ Umm... I barely know you? And don’t you have any manners? You’re spreading bread all over the table!” Key jumped disgusted.
italic">“You’re exaggerating, just like Minho. Say, what happen between you two? He keeps avoiding the subject.”
italic">“ I don’t have anything to do with that guy anymore, so if you please don’t mention his name “ Key said coldly, taking a sip from his coke.
italic">“ He says that too you know? You guys are very intriguing”
italic">“ Why do you want to find out anyway?”
italic">“ I’m bored? And this is the only interesting thing that occurred to me these weeks.” Jonghyun shrugged. “ Aside from you of course”
italic">Kibum was stunned. Seriously now? What was wrong with this guy?
italic">“ Just eat your food!”
italic">From there, they went to a movie, but as Key protested, Jonghyun grabbed the latter, caring him on the shoulder to their seats as all the attention was drawn towards them. In spite of Key’s threats, cursing, yelling, scratching and punches he calmed down, when Jonghyun put his arm around the latter’s, hushing him.
italic"> He didn’t want to get close to anyone anymore... he promised himself that. Then why was he loosing so easily towards this guy? Why couldn’t he just go away now? Why did it felt so good when he touched his skin? Why… did his heart wanted to love again?
italic"> He was quiet throughout the whole movie, leaning over Jonghyun’s shoulder, as the blonde smiled at Key’s gesture.
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italic">“ I’m accustomed to think that you liked my shoulder more than the movie.” Jonghyun said when they got outside, as the cold summer air filled their lungs.
italic">“ The movie bored me, and just so you know, you’re not such an extraordinary pillow” Key said mockingly.
italic"> They walked slowly, Jonghyun humming an unknown song, starring at the night sky, entangled in the beauty of the stars. Key threw occasionally glances at the blonde one, not understanding how a guy like him could be so air headed, so carefree, so… careless.
italic">“ What’s your story?” Key asked.
italic">“ My story?” Jonghyun snaps from his gazing.
italic">“ You’re too carefree, too careless… you’re not like all of them… you’re different”
italic">“ Well... thank you” Jonghyun smiled shyly, from the compliment. He put his hands in his pockets, eyes attached to the stars again. “ My story , consists in the fact that I don’t quite have one. I guess you’re expecting me to say something that would leave you speechless, like I used to be the leader of a gang, a drug dealer, a prisoner who found out there, how precious freedom really is. I’m sorry to disappoint you but… I’m just you’re ordinary guy from next door.”
italic">“ You’re everything except ordinary” Kibum uttered, eyes glued to the latter.
italic">“ Well… if that’s what you think, thank you. I’ve been like this as long as I can remember. I used to live in Scotland with my grandparents, they told me all the myths and stories from there and I fell in love them. They were the key that opened the gate to a new world, where I felt free, all I did there was to dream and to imagine. I moved with my mom in Great Britain after. There, in spite of the beauty of London, the people were too overstressed with work, with their jobs and money, as a kid who grew up in a lost forgotten village, I kept my beliefs, and promised myself not to become like everyone else. It was sad, you know… to see how everyone lost their dreams and imagination... what’s the use of being vain, mean and greedy? It doesn’t make life enjoyable. From there, I moved here due to my father’s job and here... I found a real fairy.”
italic">Jonghyun grabbed Key’s hand and looked at him straight into those beautiful eyes that shined brighter than the stars.
italic">“ Thank you for giving me your precious time Key”
italic">“ Key?” Kibum gasped not realizing he was holding his breath.
italic">“ You’re the key to my heart, to my dreams , stories, and myths. You’re the one I’ve been dreaming since I was a child”
italic">“ Are you sure that punch did damage your brain? I’m a human.”
italic">“ You’re so much more than a mere human” Jonghyun smiled widely approaching his lips to Kibum’s ear.“ You’re my fairy”
italic"> Kibum looked at the latter as if the was a nuts.
italic">“ I wish I would have never asked” Kibum rolled his eyes.
italic"> They stood in the same place in silence for a couple of minutes until Jonghyun broke it.
italic">“ I know you love to stare at me, but you should go inside now.”
italic">Key looked over his shoulder realizing he was in front of his house.
italic">“ I... I wasn’t staring! Good bye! “ his words were muffled as his cheeks took a rosy tint.
italic"> Jonghyun laughed, amused by the latter’s display of shyness and he walked home feeling infinite.
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italic"> The next day was Saturday, and since Jonghyun had detention he couldn’t visit Kibum in the morning as he whished. So, he refused to do any labor work, playing all sorts of songs at his guitar, to the other student’s enjoyment and to his teacher’s irritation, gaining another hour of detention due to his rebellion in which the other’s committed to stay and listen to him. Who would have thought you would enjoy detention, and didn’t quite wish it would end so soon. The teacher practically yelled at them to go home already since they stood there two more hours than they were supposed to, and she really wanted to go home now.
italic"> Everyone parted, thanking Jonghyun for the great time they had, and if he’ll be there next Saturday they’ll definitely get into detention again.
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italic">“ What do you want again?” Kibum responded at the front door to Jonghyun’s surprise.
italic">“ You seem eager to see me. What’s with the sudden change?”
italic">“ My mom isn’t home and I was trying to read, but someone has a real talent to disturb me. You’re lucky I didn’t call the cops.”
italic">“ I missed you too Key.” Jonghyun teased wanting to go in.
italic">“ And where do you think you’re going?”
italic">“ There’s no need to welcome me in, my fairy, I can do it myself”
italic">“ Oh, I’m not. I would prefer you to stay outside!”
italic">“ Do you really want this door broken too?”
italic">“ You’ll pay for it, so it doesn’t concern me.” Kibum shrugged, wanting to close the door.
italic">“ I’ll be quiet my fairy, I’ll let you read in peace if you let me in. If not… let’s say I have pretty strong lungs, I can keep up the noise for a couple of hours at least.” Jonghyun smiled, stopping the door with his foot.
italic"> Kibum sighed, and let the latter come in, as he walked forward to the dorm. When the owner got there, he saw Jonghyun sitting in his bed comfortable, attuning his guitar.
italic">“ What do you think you’re doing?”
italic">“ I wanted to sing something for you?”
italic">“ You said you would be quiet!”
italic">“ And aren’t I ? You’ll read while listening to music”
italic">“ I doubt you’re worth listening”
italic">“ You can decide after you hear me” Jonghyun smiled.
italic"> And so, his fingers started to move slowly on the strings as the song got faster, accompanied by his amazing voice as the latter was taken aback by his skills. He sang Infinite’s Paradise.
italic">“ So… does the fairy approve of me singing to it? Am I worth listening?” Jonghyun asked after he finished, leaving Key speechless for a mere second
italic"> “I... guess I can manage to read in your noise.”
italic"> So the day went along, with Jonghyun singing, not showing any signs of exhaustion and Key reading on the armchair, giving short glances sometimes at the latter.
italic">“ Aren’t you tired?” Kibum finally asked, at dusk.
italic">“ No... as long as I’m singing for you. Are you? You’ve barely read since I got here, you’ve stared at me since then”
italic">“ It’s because you’re in my bed, I can’t read in this armchair, it’s too hard.”
italic">“ Why didn’t you say that in the first place? Come here” Jonghyun patted the empty space next to him.
italic"> “ I’m not coming!” he said decisively.
italic">“ Oh, I almost forgot! Jonghyun jumped from the bed to his backpack, taking a book from it.
italic">“ This is yours… “ he handed it to Kibum.
italic">“ How did you…? Oh.. umm.. thanks” Kibum murmured, but thought soon that he shouldn’t have thanked him, since he was pulled like a ragged doll to the bed. But he calmed down soon enough as the latter started playing again. Songs really were magical.
italic">“ Why do you like to sing?” Kibum asked as the darkness slowly surrounded them.
italic">“ I don’t think “like” is the word to definite it. It’s more like I enjoy it, I feel like I leaving reality, entering in a new magical world, I get entangled in something unique and enchanting, I simply love it because it makes me dream.
italic">“ I see.. “ Kibum murmured.
italic">“ Why do you like reading?” came the latter’s question.
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italic">“ It’s my escape from reality… “ Kibum mused staring at the shows from the ceiling. “I feel like I can fit in there, when I’m reading about all sorts of worlds and I’m going hand in hand with all sorts of characters, I fell like they understand me, I understand them. Books for me always have been a world where I could be me… because I’ve always felt..
italic">“ Infinite” Jonghyun ended his sentence.
italic">“ Yeah, you could say that” Key smiled, rising.“ I wish you moved here sooner…” he rose, looking outside the window, touching the glass. “ Then maybe I wouldn’t have fallen in love with Minho, and I wouldn’t have had my heart broken. I should have expected it, but I was too blind by my first love. He was my first, first touch, first kiss, first... well, you get the idea. I don’t know what I was expecting from him either. That he would stay with me forever? You know, it’s true when they say that when you’re a teenager love is only a drama. He cheated on me right after we did it, I accepted it at first. He said he was too drunk and couldn’t distinguish the person. Days later we went to a bar and he did it again, I heard rumors in the school that he cheated on me with some girls, as they proudly spread all the juicy details. I caught him again and again, until one day I arrived at his home, where he was making out with Taemin, my best friend from the art class.
italic">And you know what hurt me the most? That he used me... he used me in order to get to my best friend. “ Key broke down as tears were running down his cheeks. “ People are horrible... they cheat, lie, trick, they’re vain, ugly and bad... they’re all the same! He broke down in sobs as Jonghyun managed to pull him up, hugging him tightly.
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italic"> “I’m sorry for what Minho did to you, it’s horrible indeed, but... can’t you just forget it? It’s all in the past now. I may not be what you wanted, but I knew you are what I always dreamt about. I want to be with you, I want to take you away from the shadows and bring you into the light. Dark fairies always had that touch of mystery to them, but I prefer you as a light one. You’re the key that’s unlocked me, so I’ll make sure no one takes you away from me, I won’t cheat on you, nor despise you. All I want is to be with you.”
italic"> Key looked with his watery eyes at Jonghyun and put his arm around the latter’s waist, hugging him tightly, as if to make sure the other won’t disappear in mid air.
italic">“ Why didn’t you show up sooner?” Kibum mumbled, clutching on the blonde’s shirt.
italic">“Because then, they’re wouldn’t have been any fairy to look at. I wouldn’t have watched in awe my window-sill beauty in every morning and afternoon. I wouldn’t have found you” he whispered whimsically. “ There wouldn’t have been a story”
italic">“ Can I trust a dreamer?”
italic">“ Of course. A dreamer never leaves a fairy when he finds one” Jonghyun smiled.
italic"> And they stood like that until the stars started glowing on the night sky.
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