When you see me, I'm already gone [2/3]
Title: When you see me, I'm already gone
Pairing: Jongkey , Minkey(slightly)
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 2,931
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters.
Summary: Autumn brings with it fading colors and lost memories. Jonghyun eyes on an ordinary day an odd boy at a windowsill. He becomes obsessed with him, passing by every day just to stare at the stranger. But the said one never left his gaze from the books he was always holding.
His eyes told a story, he looked fragile, broken, lost, and Jonghyun wanted to find out more about this guy.
A/N: I'm very sorry if this will disappoint you guys, the first part was written as I said last summer, and I just couldn't get into the same mood to write it so elegantly or heart breaking. Sorry.
Kibum felt like he was drowning again in the painful memories of the past. He thought that everything was forgotten, but it didn't seem like it. Not now, when he woke up with the image of his face, and he went to bed with the memory of his actions.
He sighed, lifting himself from the bed.
" I need time... that's all I need. Time will solve everything..." he thought, and shivered when in his eternal silence a sound was heard.
The gentle knock at the door, and the usual monolog of his mother.
" I've left your breakfast at the door honey. I'm going to work now. Mom, loves you. Bye."
" I love you too mom, take care..." he wished he could say, but he couldn't. He didn't spoke for a while, and it would be strange to hear his voice again. Did he even had a voice anymore?
He shook it off his mind and grabbed the book he started last night „ The perks of being a wallflower „ by Stephan Chbosky. It intrigued him since he saw it on the internet, so he had to buy it. There was a quote that caught his attention: "I wish someone would just tell me what's wrong with me. Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. "
That’s exactly what Kibum wanted to find out…
“I am asking for your homework Mister Kim Jonghyun “
“ And I’ve told you Miss, the pixies stole it last night from my backpack. I’ve found a light stone in my garden and I used the paper to wrap it. I thought I had hid it well… dammit, those pixies.”
“ And how come you wrapped it exactly in your English homework?”
“ That’s the first thing that I grabbed from the bag. I’ve told you Miss, I’m innocent this time.”
“ Oh, of course you’re innocent. Like the last time when you said the parrot tore it apart, or the other time when the ninja came but gladly you defeated him with the special paper sword cut, or when the basilisk lurked in your room, or the phoenix who burn it, the mermaids... Honestly Kim Jonghyun... mermaids? Our city doesn’t even have a beach. How on earth did the mermaids manage to steal your homework?
“ Oh, that’s a interesting story actually. I didn’t thought it would happen either. You see, I went to the beach three weeks ago and I found this interesting fish which I took…”
“ I don’t want to hear any more of your unrealistic stories. Honestly, if you would’ve told me that your dog ate your homework I would have believed it”
“ But that’s too plain and boring Miss. If I should invent an excuse why not do it in an original way?”
“ Indeed” the teacher sighed, already used to this, writing something on a piece of paper.
“ So... detention on Saturday at 8 a.m?” Jonghyun asked.
“ No... I’m afraid not. “ she finished writing, giving him the note.
“ What’s this?”
“ A warning. You’ll flunk the class if you won’t come up with all the homework I’ve given this year until next week.
“ But that’s impossible!” Jonghyun rose from his seat.
“ Really now? I think it’s a lot more possible to make your English homework then for the pixies to steal it.”
“ There must be another way! How about detention for the entire year?
“ You’ve had detention every Saturday since the school started, and on every Monday you came back as always without your homework. It seems that the detention didn’t help you at all.”
“ But Miss …” Jonghyun whined and continued to be like that for the next hour, ruining his teacher’s class. Only when the bell rang, exasperated, she gave up.
“ Ok! I can only delay your term, but you still have to bring them.”
“Sure, what can I do?”
“The director keeps pestering me and I haven’t managed to do anything about it. He’s your classmate, although I don’t think you ever met him. He stopped coming to school a month before you transferred. The director insists on him, since he has the highest marks on our internet tests, his essays are always elaborated. He takes the online courses, for finishing the high school. His name is Kim Kibum, and you must bring him back to school if you want to finish high school.”
“That’s it?” he asked bewildered, not believing it.” That’s all?”
“ Oh, believe me Mister Kim Jounghyun, it will be a miracle if you’d succeed.” She smiled slyly.” Here’s his address. You have until Monday to bring him back.” She wrote the address on a paper, handing it to him.
“ Count on me teacher! Just don’t forget your promise!” Jonghyun jumped excited already running to the cafeteria. On his way, he read from the paper “ Kim Kibum… Oxtord street, nr 57” Why does it sound so familiar? Where have I heard this name before? Oxtord street... that’s my street too... never saw this neighbor though.”
“Did you manage to pursue her?” Minho asked between bites as Jonghyun reached their table, catching his breath.
“ Of course! “ he said proudly.
“ What do you have to do this time? Clean the toilets? No.... you did that a month ago. Take the garbage? No, that was last week. With what did you get away this time, that’s worse than those?”
“ This task is quite easy if you ask me. I only have to bring back a guy to school, Kim Kibum…”
Minho started coughing when he heard the name.
“ I know man... I was surprised too. What can be easier then bringing a nerd back to school? The teacher is becoming skeptic. Say, do you know the guy? Miss Shell said he is in our class.”
As Minho regained his composure, he turned his full attention to the fries, shaking his head.
“ What’s with you again? You’re acting weird again. What are you trying to hide Minho?”
“ Nothing. I’m done here, I’m going to class.”
“You’ve barely finished half of your lunch! Jonghyun screamed. “ Why are you acting like this after mentioning that guy.”
“ It’s none of your business Jonghyun” Minho said in a low, threading tone.
But Jonghyun didn’t quite mind it, he knew Minho didn’t say empty threads, but this was really intriguing, and he wanted to find out. He was acting the same as with his window-sill beauty.
“I got it! “ he jumped from his seat excited. “You were in a relationship with that guy!”
And with that, just in a blink on an eye, Jonghyun felt a heavy fist punching his face, as he lost his balance and fell on the floor. He heard a low, deep voice murmuring:
“Don’t ever mention him to me again.”
And with that, the person took his tray from the table and left, leaving Jonghyun bewildered as the whole canteen was looking amazed at what just happened, and soon whispers started echoing throughout the whole place. Jonghyun got up, got rid of the dust from his pants and went to the cooking lady, ordering a raw slice of meat.
The shrill sound of the bell echoed throughout the school. Creaking desks were pushed aside, notebooks were thrown into their bags, as the owners left the building chatting, laughing, happy that another day of school had ended. Just to start the torture all over again tomorrow.
Through this mass of people there was a blonde figure waking nonchalantly, looking at the sky, bumping sometimes in people, but sorry never left his lips as he was completely caught in his reverie, musing about something that was stuck in his mind. Only the blue light sky knew his secret, as his eyes never left it, while his feet walked mechanically to the place they were instructed long before.
Step after step and before he realized he ended up in front of the same window-sill where the same raven boy was sitting, reading another book. He smiled at the view, glad that some things didn’t chance, but they had to chance, and he should be the one who forced those changes. So he walked confidently at the door, ringing once, twice, but no one answered.
He banged at the door, but still no reply. So he turned his attention to the window-sill guy.
“ Hey, can you open the door!” he shouted until his lungs felt sore, but in spite of his persistent tries, the raven never once turned his gaze to the blonde that was screaming his soul out.
“Desperate times called for desperate measures” Jonghyun thought as he grabbed some pebbles throwing them at the window. He didn’t intended to throw them so hard, when they came in contact with the glassy panel, breaking it slightly. A small whole with lines decorated the window now. In spite of his mistake there was a good part too, as the raven finally turned his head to Jonghyun, eyeing him with a fierce glare. As he opened the window Jonghyun waved excited:
“ Hey! Glad I caught your attention. Can you open the door?”
Kibum looked at the guy in disbelief, bewildered.
” Figures, what could I expect from a burglar?”
“ So, what do you say…” Jonghyun started but was hit by a book straight into his face.The book wasn’t thick, but the sudden impact took him unprepared and so he stumbled on his on feet, falling on the ground.
“ Next time learn how to break into a house! He said mockingly. What a scumbag burglar” And with that the loud thud of the window put an end to their conversation. Jonghyun was left on the ground mouth agape, speechless, as he was staring at the boy who furiously pulled the curtains.
He sighed, and pulling himself together, dusting himself. He was about to leave defeated, as a puppy who was kicked away from home, when he saw the book that was thrown in him.
“ The perks of being a wallflower” he read, taking it from the ground opening it randomly and starting to read it on his way home.
He attracted the gazes of the walkers, but he didn’t acknowledge anyone else’s presence.
“ I see that you didn’t accomplish your task yet” Mss Shell noted as she was inspecting everyone’s homework, and as always Jonghyun didn’t made his.
“ If I remember correctly I still have time until Monday Miss. It’s only Friday. “ Jonghyun yawn, stretching his arms, turning his attention to the book.
“ You’re reading?” his teacher inquired.
He nodded slightly, not paying any attention to her.
‘ That’s strange coming from you. Kibum did something to you?”
“He throw this book at me while I was trying to break into his house.”
“ He… that’s all? I should’ve thrown books into you too, maybe you would’ve started to pay attention to the class sooner.”
The day went on as usual, boring, dull, frustrated teachers, anxious students, laughter in the breaks, chatter in the canteen. Everything was normal… well... almost.
“ You must come with me! “ Jonghyun pleaded, grabbing Minho.
“ I’ve told you I don’t have anything to do with him”
“ You know it’s obvious, and I even saw it. You two were dating… “
“ I’m leaving” Minho pushed Jonghyun away, clenching on his backpack, restraining himself not to punch Jonghyun again. Damn, he hated his guts, usually every person he got into a fight or was threaten by him would back off until now, not even daring to look into his eyes. Well, with Jonghyun was another story, he was too carefree and unpredictable, uncontrollable, just like someone he once knew.
“ Fine. Then I’m chaining you, now you have to come with me” he was taken aback by this move as Jonghyun actually put handcuffs on his wrist as the other already had one entangled on his left hand .
“ Where did you get the handcuffs from? ” he asked in disbelief.
“ That’s easy. I’ve got them from by brother, he’s working at the police “ he smiled, pulling Minho to the direction he wanted.
“ Are you sure you haven’t escaped from prison?” he asked curiously.
“ Of course not! That’s too plain Minho, you have to think bigger!”
Soon enough, Jonghyun was knocking at the white door, luckily this time noises were heard from behind as the known lady opened it, greeting them with a smile.
“ Oh my, what are you boys doing here? “
“ We’ve come to see Kibum” Jonghyun smiled widely. “ Can we come in?”
“ Oh, of course… but.. don’t be too disappointed if he won’t open the door.” Mss Kim said, leading them upstairs. “ This is his room, good luck, I have some things to do in the kitchen”
She smiled patting them on the shoulder.
“ She’s a very nice lady” Jonghyun said as they were standing alone in the large hall.
“ And too understanding too” Minho completed.
Jonghyun looked confused at Minho, but didn’t regard what he said.
“Ok let’s to this!”
He knocked slowly, saying a taming voice:
“ Kim Kibum? Hey... This is your classmate, Jonghyun, I’m the guy from yesterday, remember? Can you open the door so we can talk please?” but he got no reply.
“ I’m sorry for what I did… Minho’s here too, so you can be sure I’m not trying to kidnap you “ at that, they heard noises inside, books falling while steps approached the door.
“ Go away! A threatening voice lurked from the locked room.
“We just want to talk. Don’t you want to see your old friend?” Jonghyun stated.
“ I don’t have any friends” the cold voice said. “ You’re annoying me, go away!”
“ But...” Jonghyun said in a low pouting tone.
“Leave!” Kibum shouted.
“ Fine... if that’s what you want” he said displeased.
He started banging loudly at the door, shouting “ Come out bookworm!”
“ What do you think you’re doing? Minho asked surprised at the sudden burst.
“ Trying to make him open the door” “ Come out!”
“I don’t think it will work Jonghyun”
“ You’re right this won’t work, he doesn’t give in so easily. Ah! I know” and he took the key from his pocked, taking the handcuffs off.
“ Desperate times call for desperate measures. Come on, help me with this” And he jumped, trying to break the door.
“ What are you doing?”
“ Well, it’s obvious that he won’t open the door for us, so if we break it, that wouldn’t be a door to open. Now help me with this! “
Unwilling Minho complied, and after several tries, a crack was heard as the door fell on the ground revealing the sought room, that kept into it’s walls a raven boy, trembling, fist clenched, ready to throw a fit at the trespassers.
“ Besides breaking my door, your ruining my carpet too”
Jonghyun pulled himself together from the ground, seeing the blood that trickled town his cheek, and the bruised hands, scratches here and there.
“ Oh... sorry... I’ll go and clean up. Minho, keep an eye on him.”
Jonghyun hurriedly ran down stairs into the kitchen, leaving the cat and the dog alone, not realizing what a big mistake he actually did.
“ Oh, my, what happened to you dear?”
“ It’s nothing, some small scratches. But it was worth it. Your son has an amazing library in his room.” He was chatting while cleaning himself at the sink.
“ So you managed to make Kibum open the door?” she asked surprised.
“ Oh no, we got rid of the door.”
“ You…” she looked at the boy stunned but didn’t have time to finish her sentence as Minho passed by, leaving hurriedly.
“I’m going” his tone was cold.
“ Why? Wait, what happened?” Jonghyun looked at him then upstairs as sobs could be heard, screams and objects thrown all over the place.
“ Damn you Choi Minho! I hate you, I hate you! I despise you!
Kibum looked quite pitiful in Jonghyun’s eyes. His heart tighten seeing his awed statue in this fragile state. So not even thinking twice he took Kibum by his wrist and pulled him roughly from his sanctuary, his room, the place he felt safe and secure. As the door fell, the walls broke, and everything was shattered, all that the built these years turned to ashes in seconds, all because of this blonde guy.
“ What do you think your doing? Let me go!” Kibum screamed at Jonghyun slapping him, but that action was revealed as useless, since the latter didn’t let go. “ Leave me alone!”
“ Do you want to go for a walk?” Jonghyun asked, leaving Kibum speechless.
“ Sure, and let’s stop and drink a coke too, like best buddies we are!” he said mockingly, still trying to get loose.
“ Whatever pleases your heart.”
“ What? Wait! I’m not going! You can’t force me! I’m calling the police for abduction! Mom, help me!” Kibum yelled as Jonghyun throw him on his shoulder tired of dragging the boy.
“ Have fun boys! You can stay as much as you like Kibum darling!” his mom shouted waving goodbye when they passed the kitchen.
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