Sex drugs and religion oh my
Hello everyone! I"m feeling particularly chipper at the moment, so I thought I'd drop in and say 'allo. Don't have much to say for myself, as usual. My computer died and was reborn. When it came back I kind of let myself drift and didn't keep up with internet social land. So for now I am back, until such a time as I drift again.
I'm sure other things happened in my life, but can't think of any right now. My home is still mine and awesome. My job is still hunky dory for the time being. My car is putt putting with the best of them. Oh! My friend Amy invited me to join her family in Disneyland this summer, and I totally want to go. It would be my first trip by myself. Yay for being 27 and never been on a plane without my mother!
I trust everyone is well. I feel like filling out the 30 days meme thing I saw on several people's journals. But I'm going to see how much I can do at once, because who knows when I might post again? Hope that's not hugely offensive to the meme gods.
Day 01 - Your current relationship
Nonexistent. Let's see, it's been maybe 2 1/2 years since I (finally) left my first boyfriend, and in that time I've had two first dates with strangers from the internet, a month-long attempt at dating that didn't go further than a chaste kiss or two, and a brief...fling? That ultimately couldn't really go anywhere. This seems so difficult. It was hard enough finding someone the first time, now I have to do it all over again? It's like being a turtle swimming up a mountain through a sea of molasses where all the other turtles are way better at this than you are, and skinnier.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
I've always been slightly embarrassed by my lack of ambition. Dingybatty, I read in a post of yours that you need to be with someone who is passionate about their goals, and of course my first self-centered thought was "aww, I could never be in a lesbian relationship with her, I'm too simple XD." I've never ever had a blinding realization of AHA! THIS is what I'm passionate about, or THIS is what I'm good at and would make me happy doing every day to earn my living! I...don't feel that way about anything.
The only vision I've had for my future is *insert some job here that I am competent at and gives me money* + *find the magical love of my life* + *kids?* = Victory!(?)
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
I am a firm believer in most things are perfectly fine in moderation. I agree with Aki that it would be a good idea to legalize everything and tax the hell out of it. Once it's not forbidden, it will become way less desirable. And idiots will be idiots no matter what the rules are.
I have always been completely disgusted by smoking. When I first found out that Bear had started smoking sometimes, I cried. Hard drugs I similarly find gross. I really don't want to be around that, or be with someone who does that. Yuck. Even marijuana, which I know isn't that bad, still has a bit of an icky stigma in my mind.
Alcohol can be tasty. The only kind I've found I like are white and blush wines, and mixed drinks, usually with vodka or rum. Don't see the point in drinking something that tastes bad simply to be drunk. Being actually drunk is very unappealing, though it can be hilarious to observe in some people, and very scary in others.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Hmmm. There may have been a time when I was very young when I believed in God, but I don't remember it. I do remember when I became old enough to actually listen to what was being said in church, and not being able to hold onto that belief if I'd had it before. Kind of like Santa Clause. It was just too...silly. Then the boredom settled in.
The main thing that bothers me about most of the organized religions I have come across is their huge sense of elitism. The only we are right and will reach paradise and everyone else is wrong and will die in a fire. Often times with no empathy, respect or room for any other view, so selfish. I know they are not all like this. And groups are always more unreasonable than an individual. But all I can think of is a child pushing his way to the top of a hill and shouting "haha! I'm the bestest and most special and all the rest of you are LOSERS." There are other things, but that will do for now.
That being said, even though many aspects don't sit well with me, I understand the need for religion, and think it can be a good thing for the people who have it, as long as it's not abused. I hate intolerance for other's beliefs, and even feel a bit guilty for writing the above paragraphs.
Places of worship provide an important social setting, a feeling of belonging which is essential to the human mammal, and a calming sense of understanding what it's all about. I think when tempered with common sense and decency it can inspire someone to be a better person, and of course contains some universally important lessons for getting along in society. Again, idiots will be idiots no matter how they choose to channel it. If it wasn't being a scary fundamentalist it would be something else. But I still like to think most people endeavor to be good, and put their religion to good use.
For me, I believe that it has all been made up by man as we evolved to explain the universe to ourselves. I am content that no one actually knows WHY or HOW we are here (if there is anything beyond a continuous chain of cause and effect events), and to just wait and find out what happens when I die.
Hopefully all that wasn't too redundant.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Eh. Sometimes I think I'm too boring to live.
During high school I went through a phase of constantly doodling on homework I had to hand in. (Extremely dorky habit. sometimes those doodles were hearts with names of romantic movie/book couples I loved. Once a popular girl handed the homework back, and her name was the same as a character in a heart. Best ohhh....kaaaayyy look I've ever seen)
and accidentally drew methods of suicide on math homework because I was so bored, which prompted them to be afraid I wanted to end my life.
But I'm pretty sure I've never seriously wanted to kill myself. It's really too frightening to even contemplate.
And I made it to....five. Go team Jess! I'll probably hack at it more later. La dee da dee da. I am a lovely bunch of squirrels.
I'm sure other things happened in my life, but can't think of any right now. My home is still mine and awesome. My job is still hunky dory for the time being. My car is putt putting with the best of them. Oh! My friend Amy invited me to join her family in Disneyland this summer, and I totally want to go. It would be my first trip by myself. Yay for being 27 and never been on a plane without my mother!
I trust everyone is well. I feel like filling out the 30 days meme thing I saw on several people's journals. But I'm going to see how much I can do at once, because who knows when I might post again? Hope that's not hugely offensive to the meme gods.
Day 01 - Your current relationship
Nonexistent. Let's see, it's been maybe 2 1/2 years since I (finally) left my first boyfriend, and in that time I've had two first dates with strangers from the internet, a month-long attempt at dating that didn't go further than a chaste kiss or two, and a brief...fling? That ultimately couldn't really go anywhere. This seems so difficult. It was hard enough finding someone the first time, now I have to do it all over again? It's like being a turtle swimming up a mountain through a sea of molasses where all the other turtles are way better at this than you are, and skinnier.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
I've always been slightly embarrassed by my lack of ambition. Dingybatty, I read in a post of yours that you need to be with someone who is passionate about their goals, and of course my first self-centered thought was "aww, I could never be in a lesbian relationship with her, I'm too simple XD." I've never ever had a blinding realization of AHA! THIS is what I'm passionate about, or THIS is what I'm good at and would make me happy doing every day to earn my living! I...don't feel that way about anything.
The only vision I've had for my future is *insert some job here that I am competent at and gives me money* + *find the magical love of my life* + *kids?* = Victory!(?)
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
I am a firm believer in most things are perfectly fine in moderation. I agree with Aki that it would be a good idea to legalize everything and tax the hell out of it. Once it's not forbidden, it will become way less desirable. And idiots will be idiots no matter what the rules are.
I have always been completely disgusted by smoking. When I first found out that Bear had started smoking sometimes, I cried. Hard drugs I similarly find gross. I really don't want to be around that, or be with someone who does that. Yuck. Even marijuana, which I know isn't that bad, still has a bit of an icky stigma in my mind.
Alcohol can be tasty. The only kind I've found I like are white and blush wines, and mixed drinks, usually with vodka or rum. Don't see the point in drinking something that tastes bad simply to be drunk. Being actually drunk is very unappealing, though it can be hilarious to observe in some people, and very scary in others.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Hmmm. There may have been a time when I was very young when I believed in God, but I don't remember it. I do remember when I became old enough to actually listen to what was being said in church, and not being able to hold onto that belief if I'd had it before. Kind of like Santa Clause. It was just too...silly. Then the boredom settled in.
The main thing that bothers me about most of the organized religions I have come across is their huge sense of elitism. The only we are right and will reach paradise and everyone else is wrong and will die in a fire. Often times with no empathy, respect or room for any other view, so selfish. I know they are not all like this. And groups are always more unreasonable than an individual. But all I can think of is a child pushing his way to the top of a hill and shouting "haha! I'm the bestest and most special and all the rest of you are LOSERS." There are other things, but that will do for now.
That being said, even though many aspects don't sit well with me, I understand the need for religion, and think it can be a good thing for the people who have it, as long as it's not abused. I hate intolerance for other's beliefs, and even feel a bit guilty for writing the above paragraphs.
Places of worship provide an important social setting, a feeling of belonging which is essential to the human mammal, and a calming sense of understanding what it's all about. I think when tempered with common sense and decency it can inspire someone to be a better person, and of course contains some universally important lessons for getting along in society. Again, idiots will be idiots no matter how they choose to channel it. If it wasn't being a scary fundamentalist it would be something else. But I still like to think most people endeavor to be good, and put their religion to good use.
For me, I believe that it has all been made up by man as we evolved to explain the universe to ourselves. I am content that no one actually knows WHY or HOW we are here (if there is anything beyond a continuous chain of cause and effect events), and to just wait and find out what happens when I die.
Hopefully all that wasn't too redundant.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Eh. Sometimes I think I'm too boring to live.
During high school I went through a phase of constantly doodling on homework I had to hand in. (Extremely dorky habit. sometimes those doodles were hearts with names of romantic movie/book couples I loved. Once a popular girl handed the homework back, and her name was the same as a character in a heart. Best ohhh....kaaaayyy look I've ever seen)
and accidentally drew methods of suicide on math homework because I was so bored, which prompted them to be afraid I wanted to end my life.
But I'm pretty sure I've never seriously wanted to kill myself. It's really too frightening to even contemplate.
And I made it to....five. Go team Jess! I'll probably hack at it more later. La dee da dee da. I am a lovely bunch of squirrels.