You Were Right, I Am Crazy
I honestly believe that I have figured out the reason I was put on this planet. Many times in my life while I've been suffering great physical pain; I thought I was being punished. Since I believe in universal balance I would often look back through journals to see what I did to deserve a cranial nerve disorder. It wasn't until June when I had Dr. Jannetta open my head that I would find out I was born with it. Sure, if the oral surgeon 5 years ago had not disturbed my trigeminal nerve while extracting an impacted wisdom tooth, I wouldn't have had problems until I was much older. But, even though my whole world was turned upside down and the pain sometimes brought me to thoughts of suicide, it was a huge blessing in a huge disguise.
I have been reading the journals and speaking to others who have either atypical or classic trigeminal neuralgia for years. Our stories are all the same because even a neurologist can easily misdiagnose this condition. Along with the pain comes a series of accusations of being crazy, faking the condition for attention or to obtain narcotics which don't even relieve nerve pain. Then there is the hypochondriac accusations by not only doctors but your family and friends because "you don't look sick". Is it any wonder why ATN & TN is often referred to as "The Suicide Disease?"
I'm way ahead of myself, but when your recovering from brain surgery there isn't much you can do besides think, even if it leaves you confused for quite sometime which is a result of having any type of craniotomy. At the risk of sounding crazy once again and even though we're not even sure if the surgery was successful yet, when I am recovered; I want to campaign for cranial nerve disorder awareness. People are suffering and dying and they don't even know why. Enough said...well for now.
I have been reading the journals and speaking to others who have either atypical or classic trigeminal neuralgia for years. Our stories are all the same because even a neurologist can easily misdiagnose this condition. Along with the pain comes a series of accusations of being crazy, faking the condition for attention or to obtain narcotics which don't even relieve nerve pain. Then there is the hypochondriac accusations by not only doctors but your family and friends because "you don't look sick". Is it any wonder why ATN & TN is often referred to as "The Suicide Disease?"
I'm way ahead of myself, but when your recovering from brain surgery there isn't much you can do besides think, even if it leaves you confused for quite sometime which is a result of having any type of craniotomy. At the risk of sounding crazy once again and even though we're not even sure if the surgery was successful yet, when I am recovered; I want to campaign for cranial nerve disorder awareness. People are suffering and dying and they don't even know why. Enough said...well for now.