(no subject)
Dear Xanga,
I don't know if I've ever been this CONFUSED before.
so i felt xanga post worthy.
why is it that when a boy finally likes me... i don't like him?
why is it that when i really really like someone more than you can imagine... i just can't seem to tell them... and its too late.
there is a guy at work that likes me for some reason... very strange, i know. no one can like me, its like i have a dork stamp on my head or something crazy like that. i don't want to be the bad guy... its so hard.
i'm not even going to get into the other person who apparently likes me. because that is a little bit of illegal... lol don't worry guys.
i just have never had someone fight for me to like them. no one ever wants my attention or anything... its all new to me.
i love everyone at work... i really do! they are all so awesome and protective of me, being their little buddy and one of the only girls that work there. its really nice actually to feel accepted and protected like that... its like they are all my brothers and it makes me really happy.
this guy that i just started to be friends with is leaving for college this week... and i'm so sad. hes always there for me and i feel like i've been friends with him forever. he has no idea how wonderful and special a person he is!
but there is the sad part... the part that someone else is leaving. and tomorrow at that. someone i just couldn't seem to ever tell my true feelings when so many times i've wanted to burst out and just say it... i like him. more than i've liked anyone. and i'm lucky we're at least friends, and i can't even seem to tell him how much i appreciate just that.
what else is going on... school starting.
how depressing. how utterly depressing. it seems like as soon as you end one thing in your life, something else has to start.
here we go again.
this rollercoaster ride i like to call my junior year. <3
much loves.
~Thea
I don't know if I've ever been this CONFUSED before.
so i felt xanga post worthy.
why is it that when a boy finally likes me... i don't like him?
why is it that when i really really like someone more than you can imagine... i just can't seem to tell them... and its too late.
there is a guy at work that likes me for some reason... very strange, i know. no one can like me, its like i have a dork stamp on my head or something crazy like that. i don't want to be the bad guy... its so hard.
i'm not even going to get into the other person who apparently likes me. because that is a little bit of illegal... lol don't worry guys.
i just have never had someone fight for me to like them. no one ever wants my attention or anything... its all new to me.
i love everyone at work... i really do! they are all so awesome and protective of me, being their little buddy and one of the only girls that work there. its really nice actually to feel accepted and protected like that... its like they are all my brothers and it makes me really happy.
this guy that i just started to be friends with is leaving for college this week... and i'm so sad. hes always there for me and i feel like i've been friends with him forever. he has no idea how wonderful and special a person he is!
but there is the sad part... the part that someone else is leaving. and tomorrow at that. someone i just couldn't seem to ever tell my true feelings when so many times i've wanted to burst out and just say it... i like him. more than i've liked anyone. and i'm lucky we're at least friends, and i can't even seem to tell him how much i appreciate just that.
what else is going on... school starting.
how depressing. how utterly depressing. it seems like as soon as you end one thing in your life, something else has to start.
here we go again.
this rollercoaster ride i like to call my junior year. <3
much loves.
~Thea