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i don't know how to make this feeling go away, it's almost like a giant fist is clenching my chest and stomach every time i think about the possibility of being kicked out of the program. i know there are much more terrible things than that, but for me this is my biggest fear, not getting my RT. and i would never be able to forgive myself for fucking it up. *sigh* how do i make the waves of fear abate, and how the hell amd i going to sleep tonight? sometimes the feeling is so overwhelming i almost burst into tears. i'm praying the eval is on wednesday. which can't come soon enough. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!