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i realize that i suck at updating my livejournal. i do really good for a while and then i start to slack off and from there it just goes downhill. i think my big problem is that i like to post when there are interesting things going on in my life, some kind of drama that needs publishing for the public eye to view and either love, hate, pity or whatever else kind of emotion suits the post. but lately there hasn't been much going on. it's just the usual same-old same-old every day and it's really not that interesting to post about. i get up, i do my workout, i do my chores, get ready for work, go to work, come home, sleep and start over. and on monday nights i go to class and wednesdays all day i'm in class. how exciting! work is shitty as ever, i'd serously quit there if i didn't desperately need the money. they pay too good for me to stop now. i have most of my bills paid off, i need to pay off the rest of my credit card and my car payment is due at the end of this month, but i've got about $700 in savings and i'm trying not to touch it so that i have some kind of cushion while i'm in clinical. my second rotation is at Dartmouth which is going to be great but my last one is Gifford which is an hour away from home and over two mountains. the same two i have to climb every monday night to get to class and then do it again to get home... ugh!
other than that i'm still getting used to the whole being without Zach thing. most days i'm good but sometimes something comes up and i get in to mushy "i miss him" mode and forget for a little while that i would probably refuse to acknowledge his existence any other day of the week. it's a process. Sam says i need a new boy. as far as i'm concerned i need to take a break from dating. nothing good ever comes from it and i need to focus on school and work and getting through this next year in one piece. i can't believe classes are almost done already. 15 weeks flies by. and of course i've got all these plans of wonderful things to do before i have to give my life away to clinicals, like the visit of Claire and Naren, Charity's bridal shower, spending time with Joey, and i still have to work in actual Work and the classes i wish i didn't have. but i guess it's better this way, crank it all out in "two years" and be done with it. once i'm a free agent i'll be glad i did it, finally working in a field i want to and not having to squirm under someone else's thumb will be great. as much as clinicals help students learn hands on, they suck in that we really don't get a good work experience because everyone considers us second rate, and at a lot of clinical sites it shows. a student is a student and does not deserve the respect of a fellow co-worker in a lot of people's eyes, we're there to do their job and not get paid. it sucks big time.
so clinicals aside there's not much else to report. my exercise routine is finally producing some results, but i still have a little ways to go and how i'm going to keep it up while in clinical is beyond me. especially since my grandmother doesn't have a treadmill. i can bring my ball and weights but finding an alternative to running every day is going to be tough. but i have at least another month and a half to worry about that. right now i should be getting to bed. i have to be up bright and early for class tomorrow. ugh... as claire would say... kill me.
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other than that i'm still getting used to the whole being without Zach thing. most days i'm good but sometimes something comes up and i get in to mushy "i miss him" mode and forget for a little while that i would probably refuse to acknowledge his existence any other day of the week. it's a process. Sam says i need a new boy. as far as i'm concerned i need to take a break from dating. nothing good ever comes from it and i need to focus on school and work and getting through this next year in one piece. i can't believe classes are almost done already. 15 weeks flies by. and of course i've got all these plans of wonderful things to do before i have to give my life away to clinicals, like the visit of Claire and Naren, Charity's bridal shower, spending time with Joey, and i still have to work in actual Work and the classes i wish i didn't have. but i guess it's better this way, crank it all out in "two years" and be done with it. once i'm a free agent i'll be glad i did it, finally working in a field i want to and not having to squirm under someone else's thumb will be great. as much as clinicals help students learn hands on, they suck in that we really don't get a good work experience because everyone considers us second rate, and at a lot of clinical sites it shows. a student is a student and does not deserve the respect of a fellow co-worker in a lot of people's eyes, we're there to do their job and not get paid. it sucks big time.
so clinicals aside there's not much else to report. my exercise routine is finally producing some results, but i still have a little ways to go and how i'm going to keep it up while in clinical is beyond me. especially since my grandmother doesn't have a treadmill. i can bring my ball and weights but finding an alternative to running every day is going to be tough. but i have at least another month and a half to worry about that. right now i should be getting to bed. i have to be up bright and early for class tomorrow. ugh... as claire would say... kill me.
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