Yeah... this was a bad idea.
Stupid me, I forgot that LJ would be full of reminders that everyone is heading back to Guilco and my life stagnates here in God forsaken Cheshire. Im still unemployed and desperately trying to hold onto the hope that jobs will be more plentiful when the people whos lives havent been detoured head back to college and highschool and whatever. Life continues to get less bearable here, i continue to be less welcome at Lizs house and my other option is my Dads and just looking at that falling apart ex-crackhouse depresses me. Im on so much medication that I dont know whats jerking me around, chemicals or my own head. Im starting to wish Id taken my uncle up on his offer to go live in chapel hill with him for the semester, but that would mean giving up the only person whos been so steady in my life for the last 3 and some years.
I miss you all and hope chaos and the fall semester and whateverelse is going on in your lives goes well as I wait for...something. Ive been waiting for things so long I dont even need to be waiting for anything to just be waiting.
I miss you all and hope chaos and the fall semester and whateverelse is going on in your lives goes well as I wait for...something. Ive been waiting for things so long I dont even need to be waiting for anything to just be waiting.