Attitude is the mind's paintbrush!
OMG! I have such a bad headache right now! I hate this...Everyday after lunch i sit here waiting for 2nd lunch to end...then i go to class with Doug...Then i wait for another hour to wait till school gets out...then i go to wrestling with Doug...and after that i wait for him to call me! AHH! I hate WAITING! Maybe that is why i am so impatient! BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS WAITING! Jenni wrote me a note today! OMG! I want to cry so bad! She is going through so much! I want to help her! I want to get her out of here! I cant wait to get my car back! I am going to take her away someplace so she can be happy! Maybe she can run away and just stay with me or something....i dont know what to do. I want to do something. She asked me how i can feel like crap when i am so happy with Doug. I am so happy about that....but there is a part of me that is not happy...but it has nothing at all to do with him...it has to do with myself. I hate everything about myself. No one can change that. I have to learn to deal with the self image i have. It is such a horrible thing to say that i hate myself....but GOD i do! There is nothin i can say or do or anyone else can say or do that will change that! AHH! Anyways....g2g....Going to get Doug from class...I love my sweetie!