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The interview went great! I guess they are going to call me back because i have to do a 2nd part of the interview where i just watch the position! I hope they call within the next few days! I CANT WAIT TO GET MY INSURANCE! Its going to suck if i dont get this job...
Anyways, Today was crappy as always...I felt like crud, and my depression isnt getting any better. I have been actually getting worse. I feel like i have no one to talk to about it, and no one even cares. I dont want to burden Lee with it, and i dont want to bring anyone down. It really sucks because i think if i talked about it, i might be ok. But the only thing is, is that i have no idea what is wrong. I dont know if i am mad, upset, moody, or jsut being stupid. Today i got really mad for pretty much no reason. Because i didnt want to do something, i flipped out, i went in my room and starting crying, and i didnt come out for at least 3 hours. I just dont understand why i do this?it happened a few days ago too. I just dont want to do anything i used to. I dont want to play tennis, i dont want to be with anyone, i dont want to listen to music, or watch TV. All i want to do is lay in my bed and bury my face in a pillow and cry. I dont know why? i am so confused! I feel better afterwards but it doesn last. I feel like crap at the most, 20 minutes later. Talking to the therapist might help, but taking medicine when i need it helps sometimes, but other times, it just makes it worse.
Help Me! Why? WHY? why? Why? WHY? Why? why?
My mom and Kevin are heading down to Oregon this weekend. So i am going to be home alone (WITH MY LICENSE) for about 5 days! Hopefully i will be up for hanging out...and if not...i will just sit around and mope...