A New Journey
Who am I?
I'm a girlfriend
I'm a listener
I'm a big sister
I'm a protector
I'm an outlet for others
I am a shell...
none of these are who I am though.
Just who I am defined by other people.
and that's how I've lived my life....always.
I'm a giver, I give to anybody else who needs and I try my best to help other people and I've let that define who I am.
Its time to evolve
I have been numb for a long time now
my brain has been stagnant for a long time now
I had interests when I first moved to seattle. I've explored those interests, those lifestyles and the experiences I've gotten out of it help to define the inner me, but none of them really matter at this point.
To be goth
To be in the bdsm community
that's not who I am at my core.
Its Time To Evolve
Who do I want to be?
What interests do I have?
I don't know yet. This has been an exhausting day for me emotionally.
I cannot let my physical problems hold me back from doing the things I want to do.
And I've done that for years as well, using physical problems as an excuse to not do something.
I can have a real, fulfilling and successful relationship. And I do. I'm very happy that he's here to help and support me through this personal journey of self-discovery. I cannot be jealous of him and the fact that he's done things that I want to do. Instead I can empower myself with knowledge until I am physically able. Then we can do these things together, and make OUR memories that we can share.
Its crazy that I've found someone as broad-minded as myself, who's done all kinds of cool things and that I'm jealous of that. I guess I've never given myself permission to make mistakes. I've always let fear and negativity hold me back.
No Longer.
"I love you for that"
Love me for who I am.
But who am I?
I'm a girlfriend
I'm a listener
I'm a big sister
I'm a protector
I'm an outlet for others
I am a shell...
none of these are who I am though.
Just who I am defined by other people.
and that's how I've lived my life....always.
I'm a giver, I give to anybody else who needs and I try my best to help other people and I've let that define who I am.
Its time to evolve
I have been numb for a long time now
my brain has been stagnant for a long time now
I had interests when I first moved to seattle. I've explored those interests, those lifestyles and the experiences I've gotten out of it help to define the inner me, but none of them really matter at this point.
To be goth
To be in the bdsm community
that's not who I am at my core.
Its Time To Evolve
Who do I want to be?
What interests do I have?
I don't know yet. This has been an exhausting day for me emotionally.
I cannot let my physical problems hold me back from doing the things I want to do.
And I've done that for years as well, using physical problems as an excuse to not do something.
I can have a real, fulfilling and successful relationship. And I do. I'm very happy that he's here to help and support me through this personal journey of self-discovery. I cannot be jealous of him and the fact that he's done things that I want to do. Instead I can empower myself with knowledge until I am physically able. Then we can do these things together, and make OUR memories that we can share.
Its crazy that I've found someone as broad-minded as myself, who's done all kinds of cool things and that I'm jealous of that. I guess I've never given myself permission to make mistakes. I've always let fear and negativity hold me back.
No Longer.
"I love you for that"
Love me for who I am.
But who am I?