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Started schoool up at UNR this week. while part of me feels i am glad that i made the move, an other part of me regrets still living here long enough and needing to be going here at all. the campus is huge, cold, and lonely to me. i see a few people i know, none for long enough to have good visits with. At least Aubrey lives in the dorms up there, but i only got to see her once this week. WE will see how this semester goes for me. i am already freaking out but am trying not to. papers here, homework there . Merely intimidation. Fear of change and things unknown.
This last weekend made a roadtrip w aubrey and zack to sac for a show. took 4 hours to get there and 6 hours back because of weather. the fifteen minutes of Outbreak wasnt worth going. so cold. driving. pissed off boyfriend. getting the wind knocked out of me by an asshole.
There has been talk recently of moving to Sac for school. Im entertaining the idea and will be looking into it more through the upcoming future. i need to get out of this city. move away. change my pace. i love my mom more than life.
made 638 bucks on my paycheck today. awesome. out of personal debt with credit card and bills. still owe dad 1300 that wont be payed off until graduation.
need to spend more time on myself and with close friends. i miss too many people to mention their names. its quite embarrasing. need to spend time socializing with like minded souls and alone with self and God. been going back to church once a week. i remember why i quit . once a week wasnt enough. i needed more. im the kind of person that wants to much of everything that makes me feel good. this is probably bad. i think its got a name. gluttony? maybe.
wish i had more music, more thinking time. more books. more creativity, more slumber.
not enough of the good stuff.
This last weekend made a roadtrip w aubrey and zack to sac for a show. took 4 hours to get there and 6 hours back because of weather. the fifteen minutes of Outbreak wasnt worth going. so cold. driving. pissed off boyfriend. getting the wind knocked out of me by an asshole.
There has been talk recently of moving to Sac for school. Im entertaining the idea and will be looking into it more through the upcoming future. i need to get out of this city. move away. change my pace. i love my mom more than life.
made 638 bucks on my paycheck today. awesome. out of personal debt with credit card and bills. still owe dad 1300 that wont be payed off until graduation.
need to spend more time on myself and with close friends. i miss too many people to mention their names. its quite embarrasing. need to spend time socializing with like minded souls and alone with self and God. been going back to church once a week. i remember why i quit . once a week wasnt enough. i needed more. im the kind of person that wants to much of everything that makes me feel good. this is probably bad. i think its got a name. gluttony? maybe.
wish i had more music, more thinking time. more books. more creativity, more slumber.
not enough of the good stuff.