.:*~ The Question ~*:.
So, someone asked me if I believe in fate and all that other good stuff. And seriously, I do. I do believe that there is someone out there for me somewhere, either waiting for me to find him, or waiting to find me. Seriously, there are just things that happen to me, that make me believe it. Like today, I was doing something, and I was in the DC chat, as always...but I wasn't paying attention to it. I just happened to glance up, and see someone ask if there was anyone from Leesburg, VA. So of course I said I was. This guy, Taylor, is moving to Leesburg, from Florida. I talked to him for awhile...he's so great. Him and I seem to have a lot in common, so I made a friend. He's not sure what school he's going to, but we're both hoping it's Heritage. But seriously, tell me it's not something, that I just happened to glance up at that exact moment, or that, he just happened to come in the DC chat while I was in there tonight. I mean, those ppl that don't believe, will say that's it's bull shit, but I don't think so. Maybe I'm just crazy, I'm really starting to wonder. With the way my mind works, ya never know. Seriously tho, I really think that everything happens for a reason. I'm feeling so much better then I was a couple days ago. I'm still not what you would call, great...but, I am doing better. I still have plenty on my mind, and yeah, but at least I can smile now. I still have my moments, shit, I had one earlier. I think I finally realized, that...this is how I am, and no matter how much help I get, and counseling, and all that, it's not gonna change. I think it's something i just have to live with. Maybe there's a reason I'm like this, but I really don't know. And I suppose one day, I just might figure that out...but for right now, I just have to take life one day at a time. I just need to stop rushing things, and let them happen. I really do have the habit of rushing things, and I hate that, everything always gets so screwed up. Anyways, enough of the depression type shit, cuz I'm in a good mood, other than the fact that AIM is pissing me off..lol.
We got outta school 2 hrs early today, but....me n Jessica were gonna skip Gov. We didn't tho, Mrs. Frank kinda killed that whole plan for us, so we ended up staying there, it was bull shit, but yeah. I went up to Food Lion when we got outta school, Jessica gave me a ride. Then I came home, helped dad with some stuff, then chilled online for awhile. Went to dinner, came home, I actually wrote something, and then started on something else. The fact that I'm in a good mood, and was still able to write, is awesome, tho what I wrote isn't happy. Oh well, making progress. But yeah...I'm sitting here, wishin Nick or Taylor were online. Ya know, I want someone who is really friendly to be online. I haven't talked to Nick since Sunday, actually, no one has heard from him, not even Summer. I'm kinda worried, but he's probably just been busy with school. So yeah, I actually told mom about Taylor, cuz if he ends up going to Heritage, it's not like I REALLY met him online..lol. That's SO cheating the system. But yeah. I'm 18, I think I can make my own decisions, ya know. And if I REALLY want to meet someone from online, I'm going to. And Nick just got online..yay! Must IM him..lol....grrr STUPID AIM!!! ::screams:: My computer is being really stupid, I think I might have a virus or something. AIM is going like slow as hell, and it's frustrating me. lol oh well, I'll live. So I figured, if I stay up all night today, I can sleep through tomorrow, and not have to put up with the family...but I KNOW that won't happen...just wishful thinking. But yea, since AIM wont let me in the fucking chat, I am going to sit here and talk to Nick, and look at some shit online. I'll post when something worth posting about happens, or hell..when i'm just bored...lol. Peace!
We got outta school 2 hrs early today, but....me n Jessica were gonna skip Gov. We didn't tho, Mrs. Frank kinda killed that whole plan for us, so we ended up staying there, it was bull shit, but yeah. I went up to Food Lion when we got outta school, Jessica gave me a ride. Then I came home, helped dad with some stuff, then chilled online for awhile. Went to dinner, came home, I actually wrote something, and then started on something else. The fact that I'm in a good mood, and was still able to write, is awesome, tho what I wrote isn't happy. Oh well, making progress. But yeah...I'm sitting here, wishin Nick or Taylor were online. Ya know, I want someone who is really friendly to be online. I haven't talked to Nick since Sunday, actually, no one has heard from him, not even Summer. I'm kinda worried, but he's probably just been busy with school. So yeah, I actually told mom about Taylor, cuz if he ends up going to Heritage, it's not like I REALLY met him online..lol. That's SO cheating the system. But yeah. I'm 18, I think I can make my own decisions, ya know. And if I REALLY want to meet someone from online, I'm going to. And Nick just got online..yay! Must IM him..lol....grrr STUPID AIM!!! ::screams:: My computer is being really stupid, I think I might have a virus or something. AIM is going like slow as hell, and it's frustrating me. lol oh well, I'll live. So I figured, if I stay up all night today, I can sleep through tomorrow, and not have to put up with the family...but I KNOW that won't happen...just wishful thinking. But yea, since AIM wont let me in the fucking chat, I am going to sit here and talk to Nick, and look at some shit online. I'll post when something worth posting about happens, or hell..when i'm just bored...lol. Peace!