i just hate everything today. its just like i woke up to hating you. and class. and this weekend. i shut my bedroom door because i dont even what to see my dog. and yesterday i thought things were going so well. im so tired of crying alone. i want someone to cry with. someone who gets it. i think i hate you for being ok. i think i hate the rest of ( Read more... )

it has been forever since ive been on here.. but per request from jeremiah, i thought i'd start writing again.. i guess the biggest news lately has been, (for a little while atleast) im actually happy. im happy with my life.. kinda. im not thrilled with school or living at home.. but i have a few really great people in my life right now. And after ( Read more... )

dont take so much credit. dont you know this dull razor blade saved my life.

Maybe if I had more to offer ( Read more... )

maybe you're saving me. but maybe i'm saving you too. the things you need the most are always in the last place you look. you dont have to tell me that the way you touch me says more than anyone has ever actually said to me. you make me feel more like the person i want to be than i ever have before. i want you in my life.

Every one loves you more than me anyway. Who needs me when they have you?

Just because I'm smiling doesn't mean I have a good reason to. Just because I'm smiling doesn't mean I'm ok.

The problem is I'm never happy. I always feel like I'm stuck in this life that I didn't choose. Well, I dont want it anymore. Take it back. Take back everything. The school and the non existant friends and all the pain and all the laughter and all the 'I love you's'. I dont want it anymore. I want to give up.. on everything. Ive been waiting 10 ( Read more... )

I dont know exactly what I'm hoping for. I'm never happy. I'm a loner by circumstance mostly.. but a little by choice I suppose. Ive always been a leap before I look and figure it out on the way down.. so what am I so afraid of? I think I need some sleep before I ruin something else.

you cant fix it this time, so just let me lay in bed and cry. theres so much of me that thought you would be the one. but the truth is, you're not. its not you thats the problem, you're perfect. and its not me. it's the us that creates the problem. im a planner, i think about my future and where i'm going, i want to know how things will end up. and ( Read more... )