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sometimes i think i value friendship to highley but i can't help it. my friends don't make up me, but the bring something to my life that i wouldn't sacrifice for the world. i guess that's why i feel so let down at times by people. i don't expect the world from people, not in the least bit. as trite as it is, i just expect to be treated the way i treat others...simple and fair.
one of my friends.. i've missed alot lately. i see her everyday but we've grown so far apart it's amazing. the other day i didn't have my key so i went home to her house. about two minutes after i got there she called another friend and was still on the phone when my mom came to pick me up an hour later. i know i sound like the jealous friend but in all honesty i'm not. my circle of friends revolves around school and hers doesn't, that's fine..i've accpeted that. but still, i wish there was a way of keeping up our friendship despite different friends. after work today i got a message that was something on the lines of "roya! roya! call me back quick!" even though when i called back she wasn't home, i was excited. maybe she actually called to get togeather for once. i just called her about a half hour ago and she was home...she called to borrow a pair of pants. i should have known. i'd given up calling her and listening to excuses or schedules, i thought it'd be different today though for some reason. i'm not mad..just hurt. not by todays incidents, just everything.
some people post in here to get "the message" out to the person. i'm not though, i know she's never read this, let alone gets online. even if she did, i doubt she'd care which is probably why my throat is in a knot and my eyes are beggining to sting.
one of my friends.. i've missed alot lately. i see her everyday but we've grown so far apart it's amazing. the other day i didn't have my key so i went home to her house. about two minutes after i got there she called another friend and was still on the phone when my mom came to pick me up an hour later. i know i sound like the jealous friend but in all honesty i'm not. my circle of friends revolves around school and hers doesn't, that's fine..i've accpeted that. but still, i wish there was a way of keeping up our friendship despite different friends. after work today i got a message that was something on the lines of "roya! roya! call me back quick!" even though when i called back she wasn't home, i was excited. maybe she actually called to get togeather for once. i just called her about a half hour ago and she was home...she called to borrow a pair of pants. i should have known. i'd given up calling her and listening to excuses or schedules, i thought it'd be different today though for some reason. i'm not mad..just hurt. not by todays incidents, just everything.
some people post in here to get "the message" out to the person. i'm not though, i know she's never read this, let alone gets online. even if she did, i doubt she'd care which is probably why my throat is in a knot and my eyes are beggining to sting.