Jun 11, 2004 10:17
oki... sorry about the no update for a while. lol. anyways... i hope everything is well on your side of the screen! So i am doing well, feeling A LOT better, which is always a good thing I suppose! lol... anyways. I was up at Saint Leo, FL for a few days, though not at the university. I was dog/cat/house sitting for a friend of mine who went to Washington D.C. it was fun. I enjoyed it a lot... good times... good times... anyways... things are going well here. A lot of spiritual things happening.
Well... God is awesome, like normal. Just people he has put in my life sometimes I just don't understand, then its like all at once (at the right time of course), you get it. Yah, God prob has underlying plans about things too, but I always seem to be talking to the right people at the right time. And I guess if you look at my life, it has always happened that way. Right when I have come down to the fact that I can't do it, and I don't understand why things aren't happening (among other things), there is God, busting out another miracle. You'd think I'd have faith enough to KNOW that God ALWAYS comes through, but sometimes (most of the time) we, or at least me, doubt a lot. I pray that you and I can both not doubt our faith, and realize that EVERYTHING that we do, has to be a sacrafice for the Lord. EVERYTHING we do, what we involve ourselves in, has to be done for the Lord. Since I have been to A LOT of funerals lately, it really makes me think of why I'm here and what I am put here to do, and the only thing that matters at any of the funerals is our faith. How they have stood strong for the Lord, or not. Because that is the ONLY thing that matters then, and now. Why is it that FAITH is the one thing that people try to ignore on this earth, yet, it is the ONLY thing that matters when we die, and we try to ignore it. So, I know that we all have our faith, and we all look up to the Lord, and that is who we try to live for, with everything that we are. But let's renew that commitment to the Lord, like FULL OUT... EVERYTHING that we do, and every person we talk to, enemy or friend alike, and just live for Christ. Because I have decided with ALL MY HEART (again, because I fail) that at my funeral, people will know that I am with the Lord in paradise, because I tried to live my life FULL OUT for Christ. Everyone that I come in contact with will know about the love of Christ, because I am going to do my best, whether or not i know their faith life, to stand strong for the LORD, and be his warrior. I know I say this a lot, and I fail a lot. But I have decided this is my first and last shot at life, and everything I do is for the LORD, noone else. I WILL NOT SURRENDER TO THE DEVIL, so DEVIL... GO BACK TO HELL!
I love you all... sorry... this is a long and wierd entry... STAND STRONG FOR THE LORD... DON'T LET YOUR GUARD DOWN, because the devil is working overtime.
love, Rachel