new beginnings always start with tears
well I'm by myself right now for the first time in a long time which has got my mind running. As I was watching Laguna Beach reruns it hit me that I was going to college. Then for some reason I started to cry. Dont ask me why because I don't know. I think its mostly because of my friends. I love you guys so much and we are all separating now. For me it seems impossible that I will find another group that is willing to go to the park at 3 in the morning or steal silverware with. I don't know if I will see everyone again all together. Sad thing is that my parents dont care. They aren't upset or anything. I'm their first so it should be a big deal and its totally not. I think thats the only reason I'm excited to start. That and I get to get the hell out of holt! Man this journal is not coming out how I wanted but I guess thats ok. I just want to make the most out of the time I have left with everyone so I put in my last day at work. With that I really want to go to the beach. Anyone want to go to the beach with me? Or horseback riding? Or to the park at 3 in the morning?