Good Bye
Yesterday, I had to say good bye. I had to say goodbye to the person I dated for almost three years.
In those three years, we had been through a lot. I helped him through his divorce, hours moving back home, his job losses. He helped me through my depression, my suicide attempts, my wanting to give up.
What hurts the most, it's the little things. The not reaching over to text him good morning or have a good night. The needing someone to vent to. The fact that he only ever told me he loved me whenever I was crying. And he never said good bye to me back.
I had to make a hard decision. We don't communicate well. I was always angry and frustrated. The relationship was going no where.
I also may need to move back home. I'm so far in debt. My depression has gotten worse.
I barely saw him as it was, and he lived 5 mins away. If I move back him, I'd never see him again.
I cried, a lot, yesterday. I'm still crying.
I'm still asking if I made the right choice. I'm still going to wonder if we could work it out. In still going to want to text him, to call him, to see him...
Good bye
Posted via LiveJournal app for Android.