Dec 06, 2006 00:20
How does one define life and what is important? So much of what we are told is important is stupid, at least if you ask me it is.
I've been spending this time, alone, sad and miserable, trying to define things for myself. I am trying to figure out what I value in myself, in my friends, in a career, and in my husband, and I am trying to balance all of that out.
Too much of the time people seem concerned with things that don't matter. I don't give a shit what was on Grey's Anatomy last night. I don't care how many times your threw up when you were drinking. I think spending $70 on make-up is stupid and shopping after Thanksgiving because you've been conditioned to do so, is dumb. I've always been flabbergasted by people who go shopping simply because a store is having a sale. They don't need anything--they're just buying because they might never find a certain item, that they don't particularly want or need, at such a low price again. And then, they pay for their purchase with a credit card. Don't even get me started on the stupidity of credit!
What is wrong with our society? Why do I constantly hear my friends berating themselves for what the scale tells them when obviously, their husbands love them for who they are? Why do I do this? Why do they say they would rather die than be fat? Why is there a banner at the top of this very screen flashing "Whose sexy smile is this?" with an offer for a free dinner at Olive Garden? Why is everything a bribe? "Answer this question, and you'll win a free dinner," or "Fill out this housing survey and qualify to win a free 50" TV!" Why can't people work hard and earn their dinners and entertainment? Why is everything about being easy, convenient, and free? What about hard work? What about thinking about what you really want and putting your money there? What about those people who can't put food on the table and here I am buying a PS3? (I haven't really bought a PS3, nor do I intend to.) Something that appalled me is when I heard about a pregnant coworker of mine who is receiving government aid to help her support her pregnancy and baby, and she just plopped down the $500 or whatever it is to buy a PS3, because as she said "I just have to have the newest and first of anything like this that comes out, I just have to!" Uuuuh...Anyone else see something wrong with this picture? Dude, WTF?
I am sick of celebrities, thin girls, low-carb diets, video games, mp3 players, and fast cars. How does any of this matter? I work with two girls who man the Lancome counter. They are both too thin, wear a lot of make-up, dress and wear their hair according to the latest trends and are "pretty" by conventional standards, and yet, I never ever see either of them smile. They look tired, bored, and if you ask me, hungry. They pick at their cup-a-noodles everyday and throw away at least half of them.
And that's another thing. Why is it so odd that I cook, even when I am alone and my husband is out to sea? Why does everyone seem surprised when I eat homemade sweet potato casserole or spaghetti with handmade pasta? Why are they amazed that I like to bake bread that isn't a bunch of ingredients dumped into a machine? How has food even become about convenience and maintaining an image? People, drop the Lean Cuisine and nourish your freaking bodies with good cholesterol, reasonable amounts of naturally occuring fat, carbohydrates (there's a reason they are in the bottom of the food pyramid!), minerals and vitamins! Your body processes vitamins that occur naturally in the food you eat, much better than it does a vitamin supplement. I want to wretch when I think of eating pre-packaged lasagna or a Little Debbie. Gross. Give me real food. Take the little bit of time and effort it takes to read a cookbook and make a dish. Cooking can be fun and cathartic. And it could save you from the cancer you're going to get from the preservatives in that Michelino's dinner you just pulled out of the microwave.
How come I work on a Navy base and some of it's sailors are deployed to a war in Iraq where many, many people have died and face horrible things that no person should have to see, and yet we sit in the break room and read "Self" and "Cosmopolitan" and discuss our diets or what SUV we are planning to buy next because the gas prices have finally dropped? Tell me again why someone with no children, no intention of putting tents or bikes or lumber in the back of their vehicle or hauling anything, feels the compulsion to buy an SUV? To be safe? Oh yeah, you may be safe (you selfish twit!), but I sure feel badly for that poor guy squashed to death in his tiny little S2000. And don't tell me it's for the space because you have one little tiny baby or pets. Come on, how often do you bring your pets anywhere and does that tiny infant or toddler really need two or three bench seats to itself? And if you have that much shit to haul around for your kid, there might be a few questions you need to ask yourself. I see people with family cars (and smaller) accomodating their German Shepherds (that they actually take to the park and around town, not just to the vet) or their three kids and it hasn't killed them or made the quality of their life awful. In fact, a lot of these people don't suffer even one thought of how inconvenient it is to strap their kid into the back seat of a sedan rather than an Explorer. It doesn't make sense.
And how did we elect the leader of our country? Were we asleep at the switch or what? Or driven completely off course by our delusions of Christianity and what that means? By our selfish belief that as Americans we are entitled to tell the world how things should be done because we've got is so right, or because we think we deserve low gas prices (so we can buy those hog SUVs and muscle cars that make us look so "cool")? Again, WTF?
Anyway, I am just sick to death of the way peoples' values and sense have gone out the window. I am tired of our attitude of "Now, now, NOW!" America seems to be forgetting that you usually have to work for the things that are worth having. Now, we just need to figure out what is really worth having and what is not.
And just so anyone who reads this knows, I am not condemning the rest of the world and sitting high and mighty on my imaginary throne. I, unfortunately am just as guilty of doing a lot of these things I find wrong. I am fighting every single day to change my thought patterns and habits. It sure is hard when we're trained from the time we're tiny and inundated constantly by these shallow values.
Come on America, wake up and fight! Don't follow our country's leader and popular culture into the toilet they're so eager to flush us down!