(no subject)

[lilnivi]

you know how you look for things, knowing that what you find may hurt you, but you still want to know. you still need to know. well i do that. it's a dumb thing to do, but i do it anyways, because i somehow feel that what i find may help me in answering my questions. in the end what happens is i begin to question even more.

i need to stop searching..... even if it is unintentional