kroger doesnt have a "drive thru"...they have a "DIVE-thru"
mmmm. nothing like sitting around and thinking in the early hours of the morning. quite frankly i cant just think on one topic...i think i'm trying to distract myself form something; figuring that something out is the hard part.
it could be me questioning myself as a whole, especially after corey broke up with me (no big deal, i knew it was gonna happen, sooner or later) and sent me some nasty arguements through myspace. i'm not going to lie...they did kinda hit home for me, but not many people would know why. still...i went to work yesturday with the awesome feeling of being called a cold heartless bitch. and i know i can be, but after some stuff i have been through can you really blame me? it's hard to not guard yourself when something happens, good or bad. if you know me at all i'm assuming you've sensed it at some point or another, how i disconnect from life sometimes. it's just how i live my life without going crazy. go figure watching your life from the sidelines is way easier then diving in head first...shielding yourself instead of getting your feet wet. i dunno...it just makes sense to me...
papes came to visit....it was so weird seeing her standing on my front porch! but me and her hung out with josh and spencer & it almost felt like old times again, except cam, bridgett and roz werent around. cameron is coming home soon, form boot camp...and i'm actually kind of scared/nervous to see how he is now. i know first hand how being in the marines can change a person....its the old version of that person you want to hold on to forever, but inevitably its the one you have to let go... i still cant wait to see him tho. the moment i walk into josh's basement and see him playing on the computer is a day when my life would probably seem normal again...or as normal as it was back in high school. that and i know josh will be happier as well. its obvious he misses his best friend...who wouldn't?
i have a psychology test tomarrow. It all seems easy enough to understand, but thats usually when i end up doing horribly on the test. i over think stuff way to much... damn it to hell...
someone has been breaking into cars in my subdavision...they started with cyphering gas & now they upgrade to full on breaking and entering cars. when i left for work last night i knew of 3....tonite when i came home from work, there were 10. some society we live in huh? all i know is if they break into my truck, there is nothing to take unless they wire it and take the truck itself. but i dont think they are that into it...or they woulda taken one by now. then again it doesnt help that 3 cops live in here... either way i'm not to worried about it. i'm in a mode where i could really give a shit...i suppose it has to do with that whole watching form the sidelines bit i rambled on about earlier...
amber is back in davison...she's depressed as ever now though. i cant help but worry about her either... i hope she does ok...i try to be around but i have work and school & sleep is an awesome perk when you dont have much homework anymore...
actually i should get to bed now...i can barely keep my eyes open anymore...
good night.
it could be me questioning myself as a whole, especially after corey broke up with me (no big deal, i knew it was gonna happen, sooner or later) and sent me some nasty arguements through myspace. i'm not going to lie...they did kinda hit home for me, but not many people would know why. still...i went to work yesturday with the awesome feeling of being called a cold heartless bitch. and i know i can be, but after some stuff i have been through can you really blame me? it's hard to not guard yourself when something happens, good or bad. if you know me at all i'm assuming you've sensed it at some point or another, how i disconnect from life sometimes. it's just how i live my life without going crazy. go figure watching your life from the sidelines is way easier then diving in head first...shielding yourself instead of getting your feet wet. i dunno...it just makes sense to me...
papes came to visit....it was so weird seeing her standing on my front porch! but me and her hung out with josh and spencer & it almost felt like old times again, except cam, bridgett and roz werent around. cameron is coming home soon, form boot camp...and i'm actually kind of scared/nervous to see how he is now. i know first hand how being in the marines can change a person....its the old version of that person you want to hold on to forever, but inevitably its the one you have to let go... i still cant wait to see him tho. the moment i walk into josh's basement and see him playing on the computer is a day when my life would probably seem normal again...or as normal as it was back in high school. that and i know josh will be happier as well. its obvious he misses his best friend...who wouldn't?
i have a psychology test tomarrow. It all seems easy enough to understand, but thats usually when i end up doing horribly on the test. i over think stuff way to much... damn it to hell...
someone has been breaking into cars in my subdavision...they started with cyphering gas & now they upgrade to full on breaking and entering cars. when i left for work last night i knew of 3....tonite when i came home from work, there were 10. some society we live in huh? all i know is if they break into my truck, there is nothing to take unless they wire it and take the truck itself. but i dont think they are that into it...or they woulda taken one by now. then again it doesnt help that 3 cops live in here... either way i'm not to worried about it. i'm in a mode where i could really give a shit...i suppose it has to do with that whole watching form the sidelines bit i rambled on about earlier...
amber is back in davison...she's depressed as ever now though. i cant help but worry about her either... i hope she does ok...i try to be around but i have work and school & sleep is an awesome perk when you dont have much homework anymore...
actually i should get to bed now...i can barely keep my eyes open anymore...
good night.