torn apart
i feel like whatever support system of frineds i had is completely being torn away from me & i have no fucking idea what to do. Facing the facts everyone has entered a new chapter in their lives & old friends are rarely in them. everyone has left for better jobs, opportunities in some sort of branch of the military, and love interests basically. Kasey is in Fenton & i rarely see her. Cameron is in the marines. john & tony are in the navy. bridgett's leaving for the navy & josh just called me last night to let me know he was thinking of joining the navy as well. i was driving down 96 in the middle of fucking detroit or some shit when he told me that over my cell phone & thats when i started realizing everyone has basically left. its just me now. & even Jessie and Laura have moved on quite a bit. I can't catch up. Jessie has Brian & has basically most of her life figured out...she has a good job & is in school. laura has danny & is away at college. & here i am, still at mott & still confused as hell. i talked to chelsea about it....she's basically the only on i have left. it just feels like my heart is being torn into fucking pieces when everyone leaves or moves on... and i know that whoever reads this will message me & be all "i will always be there for you" & all that shit....sure u will be...remember those classes we're taking & that job we have to work at? yea...face it...it's pulling us all apart. & i know i sound like such a whiney little kid writing all this, but can ya blame me for not wanting my friends to leave me? their more of a family to me than my own family is most of the time.
if this is a required part of growing up...i think someone is fucked up & needs to make a new version...
if this is a required part of growing up...i think someone is fucked up & needs to make a new version...