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I need a break from doing HW. I'm having trouble breathing. Last night at class my notes consisted of:
'OMG can we stop talking about the Military please?! I wanna scream!! I'm just gonna keep my damn mouth shut! Oh great, now we are talking about Viagra & birth control. Can you say off track?!
Everyone laughs at me cuz I know dates scarily well. I have another date for y'all. Today 3yrs. ago (Oct. 19 2003), Alex & I started dating (briefly) & this day was the VERY FIRST TIME HE TOLD ME *wraps his arms around my waist* "I HAVE SOMETHING IMPORTANT I WANT TO TELL YOU....I LOVE YOU BILLIE!' *SMILES* I still love him as much as I did back then. My favorite picture of us is on that night. Wow how things have changed. I really don't know what life would be like if we never had sex. I surely don't regret it. He is such an intriciate part of my life. What the fuck did I do to him? I HATE THE FUCKING ARMY!!! I want things to go back to 'normal'. I just wanna hold him & not let him go. What can I do? I'm already so sick of thinking about it because that's like all I think about & I feel so guilty. The more I think about it, the more I DID abandon him. What a best friend I am. Someone give me advice. Not letcuring. The next 3.5yrs are gonna be the hardest years of my life!
Back to the HW.
'OMG can we stop talking about the Military please?! I wanna scream!! I'm just gonna keep my damn mouth shut! Oh great, now we are talking about Viagra & birth control. Can you say off track?!
Everyone laughs at me cuz I know dates scarily well. I have another date for y'all. Today 3yrs. ago (Oct. 19 2003), Alex & I started dating (briefly) & this day was the VERY FIRST TIME HE TOLD ME *wraps his arms around my waist* "I HAVE SOMETHING IMPORTANT I WANT TO TELL YOU....I LOVE YOU BILLIE!' *SMILES* I still love him as much as I did back then. My favorite picture of us is on that night. Wow how things have changed. I really don't know what life would be like if we never had sex. I surely don't regret it. He is such an intriciate part of my life. What the fuck did I do to him? I HATE THE FUCKING ARMY!!! I want things to go back to 'normal'. I just wanna hold him & not let him go. What can I do? I'm already so sick of thinking about it because that's like all I think about & I feel so guilty. The more I think about it, the more I DID abandon him. What a best friend I am. Someone give me advice. Not letcuring. The next 3.5yrs are gonna be the hardest years of my life!
Back to the HW.