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Last night at 20 Somethin' it was very girly & reminsicent of the old days! LOL! I still can't believe my Leader Roxanne dated my friends Dad back in HS. I've missed Troy & Jimmy lately. Michelle has just thoroughly annoyed Tara & I.
Within my crazy, illogical, lives in a fantasy head Roxanne renewed my hope. She thinks I'm getting married someday HAHA! I need to get over this...over him...but I don't want to. But people do a lot of things they don't WANT to. I don't know how to what I need to do. As long as I know he's okay I will get through this....if not....I'll be on the 2nd floor of the hospital. Letters From War by Mark Shultz is on right now....tear! God help me deal with this whole messed up situation with Alex...in whichever way YOU want me to.
The 29th was a really calm, happy day for me...it was Bryan's b-day & normally I'd be all emotional but this year I wasn't. Now am I over it?...never....but with all things you learn how to deal with it. I'm now to a point in my life where I look at it in a different light.
Tomorrow at promptly 8:30AM we're going up to G'paw's with Buddie too! It's Buddie's 8th b-day today. She's getting old for a Dalmatian & that makes me a bit sad. Anyway, we'll be there until Sunday afternoon. My cell doesnt work up there either so I have no idea how little ol' cripple me is gonna be able to deal with my family!
Note to self: It's GOOD to think about the ones you love...Alex & Bryan everyday! Even though they are not with you!
Within my crazy, illogical, lives in a fantasy head Roxanne renewed my hope. She thinks I'm getting married someday HAHA! I need to get over this...over him...but I don't want to. But people do a lot of things they don't WANT to. I don't know how to what I need to do. As long as I know he's okay I will get through this....if not....I'll be on the 2nd floor of the hospital. Letters From War by Mark Shultz is on right now....tear! God help me deal with this whole messed up situation with Alex...in whichever way YOU want me to.
The 29th was a really calm, happy day for me...it was Bryan's b-day & normally I'd be all emotional but this year I wasn't. Now am I over it?...never....but with all things you learn how to deal with it. I'm now to a point in my life where I look at it in a different light.
Tomorrow at promptly 8:30AM we're going up to G'paw's with Buddie too! It's Buddie's 8th b-day today. She's getting old for a Dalmatian & that makes me a bit sad. Anyway, we'll be there until Sunday afternoon. My cell doesnt work up there either so I have no idea how little ol' cripple me is gonna be able to deal with my family!
Note to self: It's GOOD to think about the ones you love...Alex & Bryan everyday! Even though they are not with you!