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I've got to church a lot more lately. It makes me so happy. I love it (sometimes more sometimes less.) Tara got burned last night at Pastor Drew's house. It was so funny.
Kristina & I have talked a lot lately about everything going on in our lives. I miss her. Hopefully I'll get to see her within with next couple of months. Last night she asked if I've talked to Alex yet. I'm at a loss as to what to do with that *man*.
Just because I (other people asking about him is different) don't talk about him anymore doesn't mean that I don't think about him everyday. I realized yesterday at church I'm dwelling on it & the decision I made about the whole situation. I don't know if we'll ever talk again now. That breaks my heart. I knew him going over to Iraq was gonna be hard, but I never imagined this hard. I don't even know if he's okay. I'm living on his memories. I've questioned myself, him, God why aren't we together? Why isn't he doing something anything to let me know he cares? I'm just getting told to wait everything will work out. I WANT to wait. But there are a lot of things I want that I don't get. Is he unattainable?
More later!
Kristina & I have talked a lot lately about everything going on in our lives. I miss her. Hopefully I'll get to see her within with next couple of months. Last night she asked if I've talked to Alex yet. I'm at a loss as to what to do with that *man*.
Just because I (other people asking about him is different) don't talk about him anymore doesn't mean that I don't think about him everyday. I realized yesterday at church I'm dwelling on it & the decision I made about the whole situation. I don't know if we'll ever talk again now. That breaks my heart. I knew him going over to Iraq was gonna be hard, but I never imagined this hard. I don't even know if he's okay. I'm living on his memories. I've questioned myself, him, God why aren't we together? Why isn't he doing something anything to let me know he cares? I'm just getting told to wait everything will work out. I WANT to wait. But there are a lot of things I want that I don't get. Is he unattainable?
More later!